Goodbye [l.s/niam au]

Chapter 9: Broken

chapter 9, вroĸen

dear flower,

four more months. i was given an ipod touch with the music you suggested and i love them. ed sheeran is amazing and i love his music, its kind of like the stuff your fathers use to sing. i remember one that your dad wrote when pa was having a hard time. he called it dont let me go. it was beautiful and he asked pa out with that song. so can you stay with me through my troubles and help me not relapse? i love you, flower.

hershey kisses and rose petals,

uncle z

uncle z,

thats great, nothing big happened since my last letter, except pa, dad and i had a crying fit the day before nana's funeral and she looked beautiful. she was wearing this baby blue dress with matching gloves, her feet in her favourite slippers and a yellow rose in her hand, i placed a black one next to hers because of what we use to do before she got sick. it was mine and yours. i miss her a lot and you and i dont know how much more i can take. thats good, do you like the bands? i'll have to ask dad and pa about the song because it seems really beautiful. i will help you until the day i die, and i promise that i wont let anyone tell you down for it. i'll tell you this because i love you, i do see the smudges in the ink on some letter and i know you cry, but you have to stay strong.

my flower petals and warm cups of tea.

flower.

{niall}

"you." i whisper. his eyes widen, the movie long forgotten. i drop my head in shame, silence wrapping around the living room as liam stopped the movie. "do you fancy anyone?" he nods, looking down at his hands. "who?"

"niall james horan." my head snaps up. "you."

"m-me? w-why me-e?"

"it's always been you that was there for me. sophia and dani, i felt as nothing more than friends and they knew, they always knew that you were the one for me."

liam smiles at me and my heart flutters. "can i, can i kiss you?" I ask barely a whisper. he breathes out a yes.

i lean in and gently put my lips on his, they're not as soft as a girls but the feeling of love is just seeping through his lips onto mine. when we pull back, i whisper. "thank you."

{louis}

"hi mum." i say, my mother and all my siblings standing in my house. i give the two oldest sisters kisses on the head with a hug, daisy and phoebe I pick up despite them being 14 years old. ernest and doris I pick up and they both squeal.

"hi, lou. i'm sorry we missed anne's funeral, so we thought we'd come spend a couple days here." jay says as i put down the two youngest. i nod, "daisy, phoebe jasmin is upstairs in her room, please knock before you go in. lottie you can go up if you want and go to the room. third door on your left, and fizzy that's where you're gunna be too. mum can have the room next to mine with the twins and i can see if jas minds sharing with das and phoebs."

when the girls are upstairs i turn to my mother and say, "mum, my family is just вroĸen. how do i fix it?"

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too short but right now i am laying in bed afraid to move because i feel like i'll get sick if i do >.<