Goodbye [l.s/niam au]

Chapter 8: Mine and Yours.

Chapter 8, Mine and Yours

Dear Flower,

I have been thinking. If I actually succeeded the very first time, the time your Pa found me in the bathroom, I would have never met you. Honestly as cheesy as it sounds, you have changed my life, my perspective of it and my hope. Please never let those dicks tell you anything else. I know you're doing online schooling but I know sometimes they can say mean stuff about you and I really hope you don't let it get to you. I know this has to be my shortest letter but I feel like I am getting better and things with Josh have been good and I really miss your smile, Niall's laugh, Liam's seriousness, Louis's weirdness, Harry's cheekiness and just the whole family. How is everything going?

Lilies and rose petals,

Uncle z

Dear Uncle Z,

It's been rough lately. Nana passes a few days ago so pa and dad are working on her funeral. It's hard, losing someone you care about. But think if you've succeeded the last time, I would have been a mess. Worse then I am now and I just miss everything and I've been crying a lot and I've been trying to be strong for pa and dad but it's just so hard. I wish you were here to help me Uncle Z. I won't, I would pinky-promise you but you see, you're so far away. I've heard a new song, it's on Rising Star, it's an American show but I have found a way to watch it in YouTube and it's by Jesse! He's like the old singers in rock! His past two times he's raised it without a second thought. He's sung 'Ive put a spell on you' and 'whipping post' they're such cool songs!

Flowers, kisses and hugs,

Flower! xoxo

{Jasmin}

"Please, Harry!" I hear Pa say, his voice rising slightly. They've been yelling for the past ten minutes, I guess. Recently, everything has been getting harder to deal with. I log onto my school site and do my lessons I have today. Suddenly it get quiet and I hear faint sobs. I slowly make my way to my door and press my ear to it, sobs. Opening the door, I see Pa in Dad's arms, crying hysterically.

"Pa?" my voice sounds foreign to me. Pa looks up at me, his crystal blue eyes inside red puffiness. "Are you okay?"

Pa shakes his head and buries his face into dad's chest. Not able to hold in all the pain, I run over and bury my body in between my two dads.

*few days later; Anne's funeral*

If I were to describe this in one word I'd say "hell". I honestly don't like funerals and just because I wear black as much as I can doesn't me I attend every funeral. Sorrow, hate, denial, disappointment, every word describes how I'm feeling. I wish Nana would help me with everything! I know the spirits only take them when they're needed for someone else and all but I am so livid. I miss her so much. I decided not to put on make up so my face doesn't have the normal glow and my hair is in a beautiful bun that Nana taught me how to do with my bangs curled on the sides of my face. I brought two flowers today, a black and a yellow rose. My favourite and yours. It was our thing, me and you, our favourites contrasting majorly.

"I wish the I could wake up with amnesia and forget about all the stupid things."

✖️✖️✖️ - x marks the spot!

Unexplainably short I know but I only have the motivation for this story but eh I don't care! I'll update Uncovered soon, Sleepy and Stay? tomorrow since I have an 8 hour drive back home.

Fact about meh: I've never had a proper sunburn. I'm one of those people that typically don't burn but I have lately I don't know why omg >.<

Dedicated to loveisequal for her story i kinda love you. It amazing and I suggest it to you, beware it's kind of sad :(