Stop Counting Numbers

18.

"Hey guys! You're wondering, why in the world would Leanna be live? She has a show at this very moment, well, we're about to start and I want you all to be apart of my last show." I said as I walked around backstage.

"So in a few seconds, I'll go out there and put you guys at the front. It's not gonna be a live performance for you all but I hope you enjoy it as much as we here would."

"Ready?" Austin asked and I nodded.

"Good evening Paris!" I said through the mic while holding my phone on my other hand.

"Tonight, we are with the family! I'm on a livestream cause I want you all to see me fall a lot of times as I did on my last shows." I said and chuckled with the crowd as I set my phone down.

"Now please be kind to my phone. I'm broke and can't buy a phone at this moment. I'm saving up for something really big. And no, It's not a house. I'm perfectly fine living with my two families.

"Tie your shoelaces Leanna!" I heard someone shout from the crowd.

"Thanks!" I chuckled as I bent down to tie my heels' laces. I'm wearing a tied up heels, mini skirt with a super short shorts underneath and a fit crop top.

"Okay, shall we start?" I asked the crowd as I got up.

"This one is for my fellow fangirls!" I said making everyone errupt into cheers.

(Insert song as you guys already know it)

As I talked to the crowd, I looked around for The Vamps and their girlfriends/fiancee.

I saw them at the left side of the stage and I waved at them.

"So, as tradition to this tour, I will do a whole round of covers from my favorite bands and artists, this first cover is 'Walking with Wind' by One Direction. Please don't attack me if I don't do it smoothly. I am also just a fan." I said and giggled then started.

After singing a few more from The Vamps, Why Don't We, New Hope Club, Ariana Grande and other, it was time to end the show.

"To end the show, I'll be singing 'Supermarket Flowers by Ed Sheeran" with you guys cause it's a song for the mood." I said then went backstage to get the Piano with Charles' and Dad's help.

"Thanks guys." I said as we placed it on where I want it.

"Don't cry lil sis." Charles mumbled and I laughed.

"What did you say?" I asked him and gave him the mic.

"I said don't cry lil sis cause everyone will too." He said making me laugh again.

"Okay, okay." I said before sitting on the piano stool.

"I love you guys!" I said as I wiped my tears.

"Now, Everyone say My Life Story!" I yelled as I held up my polaroid.

"Thank you for coming tonight, thank you for making me feel welcome! You guys are now a part of my life and I couldn't be any more happier! Before all this, I was a broken little girl. So you might say, oh hey, Lea is being emo. This tour and Album is called My Life Story so get lost if you don't wanna listen to this." I said making everyone laugh.

"I was broken, I ran away from my problems, I run away when I get scared. You guys was also asking if my parents are my real parents, I wanna be transparent to you because you're all my family. No, they're not my biological parents. I don't know what happened to my real parents cause they left me right after bringing me to this world."

"But guess what? I'm thankful that they did that cause I wouldn't have met any of you, I wouldn't have been here right now. Who knows what my life would've been. Maybe bad, maybe good but nothing will ever compare to this. I just noticed I kept on swerving, I'm sorry." I said and chuckled.

"I met someone a year and a half ago. That person met me off of my tweet. That person made me feel safe, protected and loved. But I left. I left cause I got scared. I got scared that maybe this person will do me like how the others did me. Made me feel special then leave. I wanna thank you, if you're ever listening."

"If any of you guys are feeling the same way as I did, I'm here for you. You might not feel it as I don't read your messages and all but I am here for you all. I admire you for not giving up on yourself, on people around you and on life."

"I know that this is easier said than done, but if you guys are going through depression, anxiety and having suicidal thoughts, please tell someone. It's scary but you will never believe how many people actually cares for you. You get isolated with your thoughts and monsters that you keep yourselves hidden. You spend time on things that you think are the only things keeping you here. But no, go out there and tell yourself, fuck it, life is too short to be feeling this. Life is too short to be hiding away. Trust me, when you go out and start thinking like your old self, it'll go back to what it used to. Because that's what happened to me."

"I got depressed the whole 4 months being in Australia, then I found out that the person I really cared about, already moved on, I knew I had to. My step brothers made me realise that. They dragged me out of my room and for a whole week, we did stuff like normal siblings even if they aren't mine. Until one day, Charles and I went to UK to visit my mom. He made a bet that I couldn't sing out and be like my old self out in the crowd. And ofcourse, I wanted to prove him wrong, even when I'm tired of it all."

"I got out one morning, without anyone knowing. I got my guitar and went to the park. I saw little kids waving at me and it inspired me. I played them a little song that I wrote, I don't have it in my album, by the way. Anyway, I sang them the song then more people came till I started singing covers and then a guy talked to me after that silly performance."

"When I came home, I hugged Charles so tight that I feel like I trapped his air." I chuckled and then looked at Charles.

"I wasn't open to having a sibling, by the way. I got used to being the only child that I actually hated Charles at first. Carlos is a different story though." I said then smiled as they both went out and sat with me.

"I often fought with my mom and dad for having an annulment but I actually loved it cause I saw how happy they are now." I said as my dad, my mom and their new life partners came on stage.

"And to my only friend and my brother's girlfriend, who often dragged me out of the house to make me look like a girl." I said as Sarah came on stage also.

"That might've not made any sense but it's My Life Story. And I'm glad that you all part of another chapter. I will forever cherish all the moments I've had with all of you on this tour. Thank you for making me the happiest girl alive!" I said before looking around to see people with tears flowing down their faces. Same as mine.

We all went backstage and they calmed me down before I went back out for the exclusives.