my forever almost ♡

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v grins.

"what if I have a party here?" v asks.

v? planning a party? Knowing her, she'll get so much vodka than any other drink.

"I'm trying to get Kaiden. not forget him, "I say with a mild look on my face.

"no silly, I invite you, him, other people of course, and you can talk to him." v says

"why not something that doesn't involve so many people?" I say

Think about it. A bunch of girls. Girls prettier than me. In one house. It's like seeing a donkey with a room full of unicorns. Come on?

"please let me plan the party." v says with an appealing look on her face.

I roll my eyes

"you know I can't say no to that face," I say with a small smile,

v beams with excitement.

"yay!" v says radiantly.

I smile at the sight of her happy.

"thank you! okay, so when shall we have the party?" v thinks.

v starts talking to her self bout the party.

I continue to look at photos of Kaiden.

what a hunk

at home

I lay in my bed, with a brooding look on my face. I can't bail on v's party... I would be a lousy friend. I already told her it's okay...

What if he finds another girl there? What if I trip in front of him? What if I have something in my teeth when I'm talking to him? What if I get too drunk and puke on him? What if he doesn't like me? What if—

"what if" thoughts swirl around my head causing me to catch a headache.

I rub my temples, and I look at the time, midnight. I sigh. I hear mac crying and mom seeing him a lullaby. Her voice is softer than any other girls. I lay in my bed and close my eyes. I listen to my mom sing to mac.

"Arrorró mi niño,

arrorró mi sol,

arrorró pedazo,

de mi corazón.

Este niño lindo

ya quiere dormir;

háganle la cuna

de rosa y jazmín.

Háganle la cama

en el toronjil,

y en la cabecera

pónganle un jazmín

que con su fragancia

me lo haga dormir—"

that's all I hear before I fall asleep peacefully.

"Ana! time for school, sweetie!" my mom yells calmly.

I slowly open my eyes, and I yawn. I get up and walk to my closet searching for an outfit.

I hear zander walk past my room groaning.

"school sucks." zander mumbles.

I put on an outfit, and I fix my hair. I walk downstairs, and I see mom holding mac patting his back softly.

"hey ana, how'd you sleep?" my mom asks.

"I slept okay. still tired." I wipe my eyes

I grab a bowl and cereal.

"I'm sorry love. how about you zander?"

we look at Zander, and he is passed out at the kitchen table.

I laugh and start eating my cereal.__
zander is moooood.  me. everyday. of. my. life.
~abby🌻