My parent's think I'm lazy. But what they dont know is that depression drains my energy.
It crushes my hopes and dreams and takes away my motivation. and makes me want to die. because who are we without dreams and Hopes. and what are we. are we alive? on the outside. On the inside? No. If my heart beat had a soul with a heart beat, my Heart's soul's heart beat would be like: "......" yup. no sound. Because something's that's broken can not be alive. It can, of course, be revived. Well.. Most of the time anyways. Like.. in certain ways.
Ex:
Boy: *texts a good friend (girl) : Ha ha are you still eating? I swear you're such a fatty*
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The girl will probably respond with a 'lol' or 'Yeah I know lol' or just a simple smiley face.
But let me tell you some thing about smiley faces -AND I SHIT YOU NOT- smiley faces are a way for people to say "Oh.. no.. that didn't hurt my feelings at all *crawls into a corner and dies*" Like if you ever got rejected (Story of my life) by text and then you text the person back with something like: "Oh OK. I understand :)" and we both know you really meant "WTF DO YOU MEAN 'NO?' I JUST SPENT 3 WEEKS BUILDING UP THE DAMN COURAGE TO ASK YOU OUT!!!" no? a bit to personal? okay.. well anyways. some people actually use :)'s in a good way! like if you say "yay" to something the person say and the person replays with a smiley face. that's probably a sincere one. Okay.. its 3:49am soooo... yeah. m just really depressed.
not about this (this example was from like a year back), from something else... Low self esteem. otay... night.
