The Little Sister (Sam Golbach&Colby Brock)

Chapter 17

Mara's P.O.V

5 years.

5 years Colby and I have spent every single last moment of our lives together, sharing every memory, every heartache, and every smile.

But, if you asked me to tell you about the best day, it would be the day he proposed.

He got all of our families together for a meal, and we got to share that moment with everybody. The moment that should have been our future.

But, the worst day? That would be the day I found out I was sick.

No 23 year old girl ever expects a small, tinny little lump, to every result in cancer. But in my case, it did.

Colby tells me all the time that everything will be okay, but I see it when I look at him, and my brother, they both know that I won't be around for much longer.

I've gotten weaker. To the point where I can't stand, or even feed myself. And they know that soon, they're going to have to survive in this world without me.

We decided to bring the wedding forward, as if I do die, I don't want to die with any regrets, and not marrying Colby would be one of the biggest.

But, as the days get closer and closer, I've soon started to realise I don't believe I'll make it to the wedding.

My body has gotten weaker and weaker, and I no longer have the energy to even talk.

I see it in his eyes, every time he looks at me, he's questioning how he's ever going to survive without me.

But I know he can, him and Sam and Elton, Corey and Aaron have each other, and when I'm gone, I know they'll get it each other through it.

I know I promised him I would be at the wedding, but as I lay here, the evening before, I know that I won't be around for much longer.

So, if I can't be there in person, I want to make sure he knows how much I love him.

Colby's P.O.V

Dear Colbster.

I know I promised I wouldn't take all the thunder on our wedding day, but, I had a feeling that I wasn't going to be there today, so instead, I'm writing you this letter (cliche, I know).

You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to be loved. Every time you kissed me and our lips touched so softly, I could feel it. I got the same magical feeling as our first kiss. I could feel it when our hearts get so close they are beating as one.

You have shown me how to live and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that every time I smile, you have put it there. You make me smile when others can't, you make me feel warm when I am cold.

I want to say something and I mean this more than I ever did before. You were the love of my life, the boy of my dreams. Just because I have passed away does not mean I am not with you. I'll always be there looking over you, keeping you safe. And, making sure you and Sam stay out of trouble.

Don't stop living, okay? I want you to go out. Explore things. Run away from cops when you and Sam are trespassing, and? I even want you to move on.

I know, right now you probably can't ever imagine yourself finding someone, or moving on, but, you will. And, when you do, know that it is okay.

Your life doesn't end here. I have always loved you, and I always always will.

Please keep living. Help each other through this. You and Sam only need each other, and know that I love you both dearly, and I know, that together, you are going to be okay and you are going to accomplish such great things.

Sam, look after mom and dad. Go and visit them, even when you're busy, do it. Now I'm not here to cuddle them and tell them how much I love them, you have to do it for me. But most of all, look after yourself. Do what makes you happy, and everyday wake up, look in the mirror and ask yourself, 'am I happy with who I am'. And, if you're not, then change it. You don't need to pretend to be somebody your not, as the right people, will love you for who you are.

Colby and Sam. Thank you so much. That summer 5 years ago, you guys showed me how to live. You made me happy and smile more than I ever did before. Don't ever give up, and know that whenever you are alone or sad, that I am right there next to you singing Justin Bieber.

I should probably stop writing now as I can no longer really feels my hands.

One last thing, remember, this isn't goodbye, this is just a simple 'see you soon'.

I love you forever and always.

Mara.'

I finished reading the letter, with Sam by my side as I stared out upon all the people who believed they were turning up for a wedding. But now? It's a funeral.

Everybody was staring at me, waiting for me to break the awkward silence. But I had no words.

Sam, Colby, Elton and Aaron all came and stood at the front of the church, Sam taking a hold of my hand.

'I would just like to say something about my little sister. Wait, no, about Mara. God, if she heard me call her that she would probably slap me. But, you were beautiful, you were kind and you were passionate about everything you ever did. You made such a big impact on all the lives you walked into, which is how I know everyone who knows you is going to miss you. We all know Mara. And we all know that she loved to party, and her favourite thing was to smile. So, in honour of my sister, please, don't cry when you think about her, just smile'.

Everyone begun talking amongst themselves, as all the guys brought me into a circle.

'Hey, Colby. Listen, you are going to be okay.' Corey spoke, taking ahold of my free hand.

'No' I snapped, looking around at their confused faces, and also glancing at the empty space next to me, knowing that even though I can't see her, Mara is there, 'we are all, going to be okay'.