Todoroki x Midoriya

Sorry

This isn't really an update, but like I just really wanted to like talk about what's going on in my head right now. I know that like everyone is probably going to be mad and stuff, but I don't want to talk to my friends about this. It makes them uncomfortable. They don't care. So um, I've struggled with depression my whole life, and it sucks, for obvious reasons. I've been diagnosed with depression professionally about a year ago. That doesn't really matter but, even though I know that I'm depressed, or have depression, I always feel like I'm wrong. Or like my problems aren't that bad. That I should be fine, I should be fine, but I'm not. Recently my parents got into a really big fight, they we're going to get divorced. I was so upset, I felt betrayed mostly by my step-father, for what he did to my mom and me. I hated every second of my life, I hated being at home, being around him. It got so bad that I was going to kill my self. I planned to overdose, I walked into my bathroom opened my medicine cabinet. I couldn't find anything I could overdose on. I cried so much that night. One of my friends ended up messaging me so I asked if I could come over. I wanted to at least get away from home. If I couldn't get away from life. The only problem was that it was almost midnight. There was no way I was getting over there. He tried to talk to me over the phone, but I wouldn't. I didn't sleep very much that night. The moment my friend could give me a ride to his house I got out of there. I hate living and I want to die. I want other die so much, but I'm such a fucking coward that I can't commit. I'm scared, but I guess that's a good thing, right. We wouldn't what the sad girl to kill herself over teenage angst, right? It'll get better. That's all they say. I just want for once someone to legitimately care about me. I'm so fucking selfish, and I know that. I take everything for granted. I'm taking life for granted, because I all I want to do is die, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry, I truly am. I'm sorry that I'm selfish and I'm sorry that instead of giving you want you want, which is an update, I decided that this was the better option. Ok, I need to calm down. Sorry, again for not writing an update. I just, I needed this. So um thank you for tolerating me.

- Hailey (the author)