breathe me (Ashton Irwin fanfic)

the letter

I held the letter in My hands, and it only made me think of him. If I thought life was hard before, that was Just the beginning, I wiped My tears away, I've got to stay strong this time. I ripped open the envelope and pulled out the neatly folded paper inside; (play all I want by kodaline)

Ava,

I'm sorry if I wasn't enough, I was addicted to the idea of helping you, I wanted to save you but instead I found myself truly, madly, deeply in Love with you. There was never a minute that went by that I didn't think of you, I wanted to see you smile and now I'm stuck with the memory of the tears falling down your face when you said it was over, but it will never be over Ava, not until the day I die because I promised you forever and always, and nothing will change that. Truth is, you saved me but I don't know Why it took me So long to realise that, you saved me from that Stupid asshole I once was and I am grateful for that. you gave me hope and a life I never thought was worth living, you gave me a forever within a numbered of days, now I know you are finished, but I'm not letting go I Love you, and I'm sorry that I never told you that, thankyou for our little infinity. you broke My heart Ava, but we can't help wether we are hurt in this world, because its certain we will be, but we do have a say, however in who hurts us, I like My choices, I hope you like yours

Love Ash xxx

forever and always

I didn't want to hurt him but I loved him, heck, I still do and probably always will, I never knew we were that close until now, truth is, I need him.