What happens when
the one person who was supposed to protect
you has actually been
the one who made you wrecked?
The one who was deemed a parent
sat idly by without even caring
and making it very apparent
that they'd never try repairing
the broken relationship with their child.
You sat at your desk always gambling
making her feel like she was exiled.
You never saw her scrambling
in her attempts to make you proud,
of course, it was fruitless
as you were always yelling loud
and making your child feel clueless.
Mom and I avoided you, always scared
and never knowing what would set you off.
We never tested you, we wouldn't dare
because it would result in a standoff
of who would lose their temper first
but surprise, it was always you who would burst.
I'm 21 now and in my own place
falling asleep with a man who loves me
but once in a while, you try to touch base
and I always feel nauseous and scream.
You're a vermin, a cancer, an airborne disease
and smother anyone near you
but understand that these
memories haunt me through and through.
I hope that one day you'll come to your senses
and realize the pain
and suffering you caused
are why we're no longer detained.
Why did you do it? Was it all because
you had issues yourself
that you'd never admit
so you'd put that issue on your bookcase
and become a religious hypocrite?
I can never forgive you
and now you're just a thought that passes through.
