I move away from Negan he gently holds my hands i give him a little smile
lily i'm sorry carl said looking down at the floor ashamed
you know what it's okay because you didn't mean to upset me even if you did it's understand able considering our situation you know your one fucking awesome kid who has balls the size of planets rick is lucky to have you
do you think you will ever have a kid?
no unfortunately
why not?
carl that's a bit personal rick said
rick you wanted me gone and someone i care about dead this is nothing compared to you assholes my eyes flickered to daryl then back to rick
ignore them just tell me carl said
it's not that i don't want to it's just i pictured doing that with Eric now that he is i struggled to say the word
resting? carl prompted
yeah resting i won't love anyone as i did him let alone have a child with them
i'm sorry i did this
it's okay because not talking about it makes it worse when it all of a sudden pops up i just want Eric to be remembered whether people actually met him or not i think you would of liked him if Negan knew him he would have loved him he was a badass absolutely hilarious obviously he has killed people but he saved me one night someone attacked me i was on the floor about to pass out he kills the person takes me somewhere and cleans me up i was off school for about a month cause i could barely move Negan wasn't even aware of it
i have an idea daryl kneel on the floor in front of me Negan pointed with Lucile daryl cautiously knelt down looking to me
Negan what are you doing? i questioned covering my panic
nothing to worry your pretty little head about he answered with a devilish grin
if you kill him he won't learn his lesson for killing a tone of your men
your right maybe he won't Negan said scaringly calm i couldn't help but sigh in relif
he definitely won't
daryl won't but you will before i could process what he was saying Negan swung Lucile at daryl whacking his head i look over and see maggie crying rick had tears in his eyes that threatened to spill and carl sobbed as upset as i was my tears never fell my legs shook causing me to drop to my knees Negan gave daryl one last hard whack my breath hitched Negan walked over to me looking down at my shaking frame he was covered in daryl's blood Lucile had bits of his skin stuck on the barbed wire Negan looked in my eyes and said
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he picks me up and motions for his men to leave us following behind
lily your dead maggie shouted
i know i whispered
it's gonna be okay Negan said in my ear stroking my head
i'm all alone again Negan i said quietly
you have me
you killed my friend i don't feel anything anymore
