who knew?

Healing.

After her scene, Jared and Jensen had their scene with Misha and Richard. So Leah thought it would be a good Idea to head to her trailer, and just relax on her couch watching Jareds and the guys "Always keep fighting videos" Now Leah wasn't that much of an emotional person. She gets over whelmed yes but she rarely cried. She keeps her emotions to herself. 

while she was on the way to her trailer, Leah felt something hit her. It went straight to her brain just giving her black and Gray fogs. She was seeing nothing but darkness. She held her breath before she stumbled to her trailer and closed the door before she collapsed on her couch and bust out a sob she has in her chest. She doesn't know why she get these moments... she just...does... Every time she felt them...  she immediately opens her laptop and puts on one of the "AKF" videos Jared puts up, it always helps her...she hates this depressed feeling, she hated feeling useless, and helpless and just plain dull. She always try to let out a giggle trying to see how much doofs they are to try and make the watcher laugh but they were always succumbed by sobs, her tears burn her hazel eyes as they compliment her cheeks by wetting them before she tries to wipe them and sniffle. 

Keeping on watching these video's, Leah calms down from her sobs and tears and starts to feel weak as if to falling asleep. bending close to the end of the couch to rest her head on a pillow, her eyes drop into a slumber. Her face tear stained and pink but still peaceful in her dreams. 

After what seemed like 2 hours, Jared walked into her trailer and was about to surprise her but His brow frowned before he took a look at her state. He glanced at her laptop and saw the logo of "AKF" his eyes turned into a soft sympathetic look as He held a breath before he sighed softly while slowly walking up to her and gently shook her "Leah?..Leah? baby?" he whispered. Leah groaned as she opened her eyes "Jar? am I needed on set?" she asked groggily while wiping her eyes from sleep.

"No hon. we can go home for now." he said keeping his suspicious look on her "what's the matter?" Jared asked looking her straight in the eyes. 

"what do you mean, Jar?" 

"come on baby. I'm not stupid. Your cheeks are pink, your eyes are red and puffy, your face is tear stained and the video of always keep fighting has stopped. Leah...please..tell me what's going on?" concern evident in his voice, he held her arms with his hand squeezing it in a comforting manner as he simply gazed into her hazel eyes with his puppy look of honey brown eyes. Leah stared at him shaking her head "it...it's not that big of a deal. It's ok. I'm dealing with it on my own. I don't want you to burden this silly extra weight. it's really nothing. it's not serious like from most of the fans.Our fans lives are much more serious then this. it's ok" she reassured him with a soft smile. 

Jared frowned "Leah, serious or not. It's still a problem. and we will work it out...together..me and you... we're a team now. don't you forget it. It's been a quick team up but I don't regret any single minute of it." he spoken so sternly yet so loving, now placing his hands cupping her face. "I don't wanna put any pressure on you... whenever you want, whenever you can and whenever you're ready. I'm here for you" Jared said strongly now toning his voice and tone down into a soft hushed whisper before he gently kissed her forehead passionately and keenly pressing his lips and holding it onto her head. 

Leah's tears came brimming down her face once again biting her lip to not sound any sobs but a whimper attempted to escape. Jared looked down at her and knelt back down so he can be under her so he can look up to her, he sees her in this state and clearly doesn't know what else to do. So...what he does was he softly sighed before going beside her, scooping her up and just press her as comforting as he could onto his body...her small visage was no problem for her tall structure of a moose. He placed his chin onto her head, while his fingers were stroking her hair while his other hand was upping and downing sensitive and tender movements on her arm for comfort. He couldn't stand seeing her like this it hurts so bad. 

Leah sniffled and just tightened her grip on him as close as ever. "As I said...Supernatural changed and saved my life." she whispered through his shirt. "Leah." he hushed with closed eyes as he kept on stroking his hand up and down on her arm for reassurance. He started to sway them to and fro as she was in like a baby like form in his arm. He quickly removed his chin from her head being replaced by a heartfelt kiss. 

She stayed quiet not saying anything else and just enjoying this moment. Leah frowned as she kept on holding onto him. Jared softly rested his chin on her head once again while still cradling her while leaving the comfortable silence surround them.

After a small while, Leah cut off the silence. 

"Jar." she whispered 

"yes Leah?" he replied in the same tone as hers.

"I.. I suffer from depression... I'm sorry. I know I should've told you that, I know but...I don't want you to worry about it." she now explained everything with closed eyes still holding onto him as though he's dear life. Jared gulped and let out a shaky breath 

"Leah. Listen to me. It's alright. At least you told me now. And..I'm so sorry for what you're going through Leah. I'm so so sorry for you suffering from something you don't deserve but I will have you know. I will always worry Leah. You're my girlfriend now. and you and I are gonna have to carry each other. you're never alone. I have you and you have me. Me and you are now a team." Jared said looking down at her with his eyes stinging with different emotions. "we have each others backs. I will always be there for you" Jared finished up with a squeeze of a hug of her being closer and closer to him as possible. 

Leah teared  up once more before sobbing into his arms once again, shaking with emotions when all of sudden...for the ever first time ever....she sobbed out the words "I love you Jared" Jared felt his heart was about to burst with many emotions... his strong love and feelings for Leah was unbreakable, his sad heart seeing his girl in this state. She looked to helpless and clueless about everything. His anger as to the fact "why does this illness exist?!"... but..his love gotten the better of him.. "I love you" she sobbed out to him again making him realise what she said earlier and just now. Gasping inaudibly, his eyes began to tear up by those words as he just simply sobbed silently into her head and replying with "I love you too Leah" followed by a soft and gentle kiss as he pressed his forehead against her head and nuzzling into it while cuddling her close to him. "it's ok. It's ok. Let's remember. Come on." he whispered trying to cheer her up "always keep fighting" he added on "remember that" he concluded before finishing up with a soft to her head one last time and embracing her as warmly as ever.