who knew?

the worry stops here.

Jareds POV

Ever since we arrived at the hospital, I couldn't let go of Leah's hand. During when they were taking her blood for some tests, when they made an ultra sound to check her stomach.. Anything.. I wish she has nothing, or at least if she has something, I pray for something that can be cured. Please god don't let it be what I think it is. Leah woke up with a soft groan making me jump up to her "heey. Hey, baby." I whispered to her placing my hand on her head gently using my thumb to stroke her temple. "Wh.. What's wrong with me? Did they say anything?" she asked worriedly, I sighed "No they didn't, baby. Just stay at ease. If you feel nauseous, they brought in a bucket" I feel her leaning in more to me, I couldn't not lay down next to her and just protect her with my everythig. I close my eyes just enjoying her feel against my chest. "Don't worry baby, whatever it is, we will work it out. Everyone is gonna help." I felt her whimper and hold a firm ball of a grasp on my shirt... Damn.. She's crying. I envelope her more into my grasp almost tearing up with her but I want to be strong for her. I got to be strong for her.

"why did you tell everyone? I don't want anyone to worry." she asked me through silent tears. I could still feel them soaking my shirt, and I don't care about my shirt being wet,  all I care about is her. I rubbed her arm gently pressing a kiss on her temple "they deserve to know and not be lied at." I replied to her. She sniffled her tears Back causing my heart to break. I hate to see my girl like this, if I could take all her bad memories and pain, I would. "i'm tired again. Can I sleep?"

"I.. I don't know. I can ask your doctor" I pushed myself off the bed and went to find the doctor who took her tests "i'm sorry. I was wondering if my girlfriend can sleep, I mean.. Is it OK to do since it might cause something from the tests?"
"yes of course. And Mr. Padalecki.. Her name is Leah right?"
"right" I replied fast
"Well, we had fast results from the tests" my eyes widened. "what is it?" I asked. The doctor sighed and looked at me softly... That worried me.

JENSENS POV

"Drive faster!!!" Misha exclaimed from. Behind me, making me more nervous and panicked than I already was "IF YOU WANNA TAKE THE WHEEL! YOU DRIVE!!!"
"HONEY!" Daneel snapped at me. I could still see a bit of worry and concern in her eyes, I love my wife and I like that her, Sabaa and Leah connected. I could see that... I sigh in a huff and held a tight grip on the wheel trying to control my breathing.

"Honey. Calm down. Maybe nothing is wrong. Maybe we're worrying about nothing"

"yeah? Well, what do you think about the blood?!"

"Jensen. We will see when we get there" I swear if I hear another soothing comment I will flip out. If Jared is worried, then something is wrong! I clench my jaw as I see the hospital where Leah is being held at. I press the gas and miraculously find a parking space, I screech my tires and parked into the empty space. "JENSEN!!" Daneel exclaimed. I ignore that and got out of the car, everyone rushed out after me, I press the lock button on my key and rush inward.

JAREDS POV

I am still comforting my sleeping girl... And for now, she still didn't ask for the bucket, so I guess it's a good sign. I couldn't get the words the doctor said to me...  This can't be happening... She was doing so well.. I hear footsteps approaching and I see Jensen, Misha, Sabaa and Daneel. I feel so grateful to have friends like these people. "guys!" I whisper before I got off the bed and went over to them pushing them out to leave Leah sleep in quiet.

"tell me it's nothing" Jensen said. He was clearly worried as much as me... I swear he and Leah clicked so much, he was like a brother to her too.

"I... I can't lie" I told him. I could hear everyone gasp. Sabaa held a grip on Misha's arm.. "Wh.. What's wrong? What's happening to her?" I sighed and clenched my jaw and fists. "I swear I...  I don't know how..  Th.. The doctor said...  He said that her depression and anxiety are so over whelming that her stomach is causing her to make her be nauseous and tired."

Everyone just sighed in both relief and both still of worry. "at least it's not something worse." Jensen said closing his eyes. "yeah" I reply "B.... But what about the blood?" Misha asked confused "he said that the blood came from the vomit scratching her throat. It's nothing."

"Thank god!" Sabaa relieved. "it's still bad but at least it wasn't... You know"
"yeah. Yeah, thank god. I don't know why she had to suffer from it.. She's such an amazing person." I told them looking through the door to see Leah still sleeping. "That she is" Jensen said smiling. "see? I told you guys" Daneel said trying to brighten the mood. It worked for me "you thought it was nothing?" I asked her "I just wanted to help calm down these 3!" I chuckled and shook my head.

I hear a soft "Jared" coming from the room. I rocketed inside and up to her crouching to face her "hey baby. Hey. I'm here. I'm not leaving you" I say almost tearing up. This is too overwhelming knowing that her anxiety and depression is eating her up and have nothing to do about it. I want to help, I want her to be better. I want her to be safe, I want her to love herself as much as I love her. I want her to see how beautiful and special she is, the way I see her in my eyes... The way I always seen her through every moment of the day spending it with her. I want her to love herself the way she loves the show.

I want her to be strong. I want her to fight. She's a fighter. I know she can do it. I know she can. If she stopped herself from suicide...  Then she can stop herself through anything. "Wh.. What's wrong with me? Am.. Am I gonna be ok?" I couldn't hold the tears no more before I pressed a kiss on her head "Jared. You're scaring me!" she whimpered "sorry baby. I don't mean to. I love you so much. Y.. You have nothing.. The doctor said that your anxiety and depression are eating you up and causing you to be tired and nauseous all the time. But don't worry baby. I got you" I whispered through her hair rubbing my lips against her temple "I love you so much baby girl"

"I love you too, baby. I will try to fight. I'm sorry for worrying you." she whispered to me. "don't apologise for anything" I whispered. I feel her gasp "guys!!" Oh... Right. I forgot there are Jensen and Misha with their partners.