Thin as Paper

A playlist called X's

I have a song for each of my past lovers
That represent our relationship at the time
Even for those who weren't a serious part of my life.

I would hate you if i could by Turnover

"I hear you've been telling all your friends
That you're done with me
Like you always knew things wouldn't work out
And I've been hearing things from people
That I don't want to talk to
Like it matters who you're sleeping with now"

That songs describe my first experience at trying to loving someone and being broken after being left behind. I thought i loved Brown eyed boy. But i was in love with the idea* that song was exactly how i felt about him after our relationship has sink in the ocean of my tears

Flaming Hot Cheetos by Clairo

"Girlfriend or girl, that's a friend?
It's easy just to pretend
That we don't have something real
It's just how we feel"

My first real something with a girl. I've always knew i liked girls too but this was my first real attempt at a relationship. That specific song reminds me how i didn't care if we weren't official. I was just loving the time we spend together because we were two lonely persons who had a desire to be close to somebody

Hostage by Billie Eilish

"I don't know what to do
To do with your kiss on my neck
I don't know what feels true
But this feels right so stay a sec
Yeah, you feel right so stay a sec"

That was just a moment between me and a close friend we were both fucking high and between us is something we knew that would happen but the fact that he was in a relationship with another made things complicated but just for one night. We Slept together while holding each other so hard. Because we knew that this would be our only night being a little bit more than friends