The me inside myself (a Ross Lynch fanfic)

Chapter 26

WARNING! THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS A BIT OF SELFHARM IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE WITH THAT SUBJECT OR JUST CAN'T TAKE IT YOU SHOULD PROBABLY DON'T READ THE MIDDLE PART OF THIS! THE END IS KIND OF IMPORTANT SO PLEASE DO READ THAT!

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~sydney's pov~

*the next day*

Girls night was awesome! I had such a great time.

We laughed so much and told each other our deepest secrets.

Yes I told them what jay, ross and Dylan did to me.

Luckily we have a day off school today.

Its already 2pm so everyone left.

Except for serena because she lives with me but we are planning to go to our boyfriends now.

We walked out the door and a car stops in front of us.

"its rocky sorry bye" serena says and steps in.

"bye" I say and the car drives off.

I walk further and see ross sitting on the ground with his head in his hands.

I know I said I would never talk to him again but I cant just ignore him and walk around him while he's crying.

I cant believe im going to do this..

I sit down next to him and lay my hand on his back "hey whats wrong?"

He hides his head in my neck and let out some quiet sobs.

I wrap my arms around him "its okay just tell me whats wrong please?"

"everyone is hating on me riker, rocky, rydel, ryland, summer and you" he says trough his sobs.

"not everyone hates you" I rub his back.

He sobs gets louder when I say that "they do"

I never saw him this upset I feel really bad but he kind of deserved it.

"come" I say and help him get up.

I wipe away his tears with my thumbs.

He flashes a smile as he walks back to his own home with me.

When we walk into the backyard everyone looks hateful at ross.

They must really hate him..

Riker comes up to me and holds me tight and looks mad at ross.

"riker" I look at him "why are you doing hateful to your brother"

"remember what he did to you?"

"so that's no need for you to hate on him" I push myself away from riker and look at him.

~Ross' pov~

Sydney is really protecting me I cant believe it I thought she would be the one being the most mad at me after what I did.

I don't even know why I did it I really feel horrible about it.

"its fine Sydney don't worry about me" I say and run to my room.

I cant take it anymore! Im an idiot going back to who I was before and breaking up with Sydney.

I walk to the bathroom to fix my hair but then I see this razor blade.

I didn't think I would ever do this but I pick it up and place it on my left wrist making 6 cuts while tears stream down my cheeks from pain and hating on myself.

I hear footsteps rushing up the stairs and see Sydney looking at my with big eyes "ross! Stop that!"

She runs over to me and slaps the blade out my hand putting my wrist under the cold water "why are you doing this?!"

The water stings in the cuts making me moan from pain.

"you scared me ross! Don't ever do this again" she says washing my wrist and letting a tear escape her eyes.

She walks downstairs and comes up after a minute with bandages.

She puts it around my wrist carefully and in silence.

I smile at her when shes done and wipe away her tears "thankyou"

"your welcome but don't ever do that again"

"im sorry but can I ask you something?"

She nods

"why where you crying?"

she looks in my eyes "I hate seeing you hurt or sad"

my face lights up "really? But I thought you hate me"

"as much I would want to hate you I just cant I know the you that's inside yourself but you don't want to show anyone"

the me inside myself what does she mean with that?

I hug her tight "I don't know what I should do without you in my life"

She hugs back "lets just be friends again and I promise I will always be here for you unless you do something like you did yesterday again"

"your awesome and I swear I will never do that again I felt so terrible doing that"

She buries her face in my neck and I feel her smile.

We stop hugging and she flashes a smile before walking back downstairs.

Why do I even deserve her, I broke her heart to many times and I even let my friends almost rape her and still she forgives me.

Now only my family has to forgive me..

I walk downstairs and plop down on the couch.

I look out the window and I see Sydney kissing riker.

My heart skips a beat and then breaks into a million pieces.

I still like Sydney I have to admit it.. I LOVE her.

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Okay i'm thinking of making an Nash Grier fanfiction! So yeah..

This book will soon end idk when but i'm sad to say it is..

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