Only you/Jesse Lingard (C)

Think of me

Mias POV:
Marcus and Jesse walked into the house an hour later, followed by my brother. Dele was dragging his feet along the floor. He knew he was in for it.
Jesse walked up to me and put a bag of McDonald's in my hands.
'We found him, go easy on him please, I'll explain later.' He whispered into my ear. It still sent shivers up my spine. I no longer had to wear my casts and stuff on my arms. But I needed physiotherapy.

Kieran was still trying to get his leg back in shape.
'You can stop now, your determined but gonna overpower it, small steps.' I Smiled. He nodded and I threw him the remote. He knew I was going to need to speak to Dele.
I walked upstairs and my brother followed me.
'Explain now.' I Said looking at the floor. I didn't want to look at him.
'I'm sorry Mia, I just got pulled in that direction again.' He said reaching for my hand.
'Don't touch me.' I Said moving back. I just had the thought of my brother taking drugs and getting caught in my head. The consequences were unbelievable.
'You have a game tomorrow.' I Said putting my head in my hands.
'I know' he nodded.
'Dele I don't even know what to do.' I Said panicking.
'Please, stop it's not your fault.' He Said really upset.
I started to freak out. My heart sped up and I couldn't breathe. I started to cry like mad.
'Dele why!' I Shouted. He looked heartbroken to see me like this.

He needed to see it. It's how I felt every day inside and I didn't want to keep it in anymore.
Jesse ran into the room and pushed my brother out of the way. Dele didn't do anything. He looked numb.
'What did you say?' My boyfriend hissed at my brother.
'I did it again.' Dele Said staring into space.
Jesse didn't say anything else. He carried me out of my brothers room and quickly took me to ours. He shut the door and put me down on the bed.
'Baby shhh, take your mind away, think about something else.' He Said putting his hands on either side of my face.
'Think of me, think of me.' He said connecting his forehead with mine.
I had stopped panicking. I didn't want Jesse to see me like this. But I couldn't stop crying.
He grabbed a blanket from the other side of the room and shut the windows, pulling the curtains shut too. He turned the heater on. I always got dangerously cold when I freaked out like this. He tucked me into the bed and wrapped me up in the blanket. I started to warm up quickly.

Jesse put his hands on the back of my body and moved my head to his chest.
'What did I do wrong?' I begged moving my hand up to his face.
'Listen to me, it wasn't you! Please never blame your brothers stupid mistakes on yourself gorgeous, ok?' He pleaded.
I nodded.
To make him happy. 
I still believed everything that had happened to my brother was my fault.

'Mia, I don't want you to do this to yourself, it's not healthy.' He Said moving his hand to my stomach.
I rolled my eyes.
'Jess, I might not even be pregnant, you don't need to spoil me.' I Said kissing his chin.
'I'm always gonna spoil you.' He said grabbing my McDonald's off the floor and passing it over to me. 

I smiled and started to eat it. Jesse turned on the tv and we started to watch football. I enjoyed watching, surprisingly.
'You excited for tomorrow?' I Asked my boyfriend. He seemed engrossed in the game but still answered me.
'Yeah I'm really excited, Sweden will challenge us.' He nodded.
'Jesse Lingard, you'll do it.' I Smiled.
He kissed my lips.
'For you.' He Replied.
'No, for your team.' I Smiled.
'For you.' He winked.

I rolled my eyes and started to fall asleep on Jesses chest.
'God I am a lucky man.' He Smiled.
'Stoppp.' I laughed.
'You make me feel so lucky.' He Replied kissing my forehead.
'I'm always here for you.' I Smiled.
'I always want you here, with me.' He Said pulling me in closer.
'I will be, handsome.' I Replied linking my hands with his.
'Goddamnit you, I'm in love with you.' He said turning me around so that I could face him.

'I'm in love with you too.' I Replied.
And really. I was.