Long And Lost (Book II)

Ch.13: Something broke in me and I wanted to go home.

How could you do this to me?

I'm sorry.

That's not enough.

I cannot possibly put into words how sorry I am.

Try.

I'm sorry for what you saw. I'm sorry that I got so jealous and blind. You didn't deserve it. You've been nothing but the best thing that has ever happened to me. I'm sorry that I hurt you.

You could've saved yourself, and me, a lot of trouble if you had just trusted me. I have no secrets, you have access to everything.

I did, and I'm sorry I didn't trust what I was seeing. My jealousy got the best of me. I just didn't want to trust my own head. I knew in my heart that you wouldn't do that. But it was too good to be true.

And then you had to go and make it all worse...

I'm sorry that I exposed you, but I was desperate. I didn't know what else to do. I needed to get your attention. I needed you here.

Loki...

I screwed up. I broke your heart and that caused me more pain than all the tortures I've endured. Just- look at me! You know I'm the one to talk.

We're not talking, per se.

You know what I mean.

Strange watched them stare at each other, completely oblivious to the conversation inside their heads.

"Are we going to stay here in silence?" Strange said.

"What makes you think we're in silence?" Sigyn retorted with a smirk. Strange looked at them confused and intrigued.

"You can read minds?" He asked them both.

"I can." She admitted.

"Yeah, I suspected that much after the train ride." He muttered. "Does he?"

"I just allow Loki to read mine when I feel like it." Sigyn added. Loki smirked knowingly.

How do we get rid of him?

Bargaining. No murder!!

"Now I'm regretting even more to have agreed to this." Strange said, rubbing his temples.

"If you must know, he was apologizing." She said. "And now we really could use some privacy. So, you either leave this room, get us one, or we go to my apartment."

"No! You're not leaving the Sanctum."

Loki groaned loudly. "Well, my wife and I need privacy. Do you have any suitable chambers in this--" Loki looked around disapprovingly. "--cottage?"

Both Loki and Sigyn just looked at Stephen.

"This was a terrible idea." Strange muttered. "How do I know you both will hold up to your end of the deal?"

"You don't, that's the fun part." Sigyn said with a wink. "But, if we must, I will be staying here on Midgard as a token."

"Staying on Earth is want you want." Strange said.

"Yet is not what I want. If you bind her here, I will have to come back." Loki was less than pleased with that option, but it was common ground. "And I will bring you the stone."

Strange looked back and forth between them, assessing the situation. He was sure they could overpower them any minute, but they hadn't.

"I try to avoid murder if I can help it." Sigyn said.

"Stop reading my mind, it freaks me out." Strange looked at Sigyn and sighed, looking almost defeated. "But I am inclined to trust you."

"Thanks." Loki said with a chuckle.

"Not you!" Strange spat. "Her!"

"Clearly." Loki chucked again.

Strange glared at Loki for several seconds before looking at Sigyn again. "How on everything that is sacred did you end up married to this guy?"

Loki rolled his eyes, exasperated.

"That's a cool story for another time." Sigyn said, sensing Loki's upcoming outburst. "Now, bind me to Earth so Loki and I can have a moment."

"Or a few hours." Loki added.

Strange shivered at the clear innuendo. "Hand." He said, reaching for Sigyn. She put her left hand on his and watched the golden circlets go from his wrist to hers. The spell worked without resistance, making a very skeptical Stephen even more confused.

Begrudgingly, he led the couple upstairs to a small room on one of the upper floors, and magically locked them in.

Once again, Loki and Sigyn stared at each other.

"Sigyn..."

"Say it."

Loki just swallowed hard.

"I know, and I've felt it. I've seen all your apologies, and I am willing to accept them. But I need to hear you say it." She insisted.

Loki took a deep breath. "I've spent so much time on my own, not trusting anyone... trying to-- stop feeling-- since you--"

Sigyn stared at him, waiting for him to continue.

"I thought I didn't want to feel anything else, ever again. But you-- It's terrifying. I don't know what to do with it." Loki started playing with his fingers in a nervous habit. "My bad choices affecting me doesn't matter, but you--"

"You're stalling." She said with a little smile.

"I love you." He stated with a shaky voice.

Sigyn breathed out. "Say it again."

"I love you."

"Again."

"I love you." After that, it became so much easier to keep saying it. "I love you so much."

He repeated it over and over again as he walked over to her and started kissing, mumbling more 'I love you's against her lips. Soon, they were a tangle of limbs and wandering hands against the wall. Fighting for breath as they couldn't get enough of each other. Sigyn tangled her fingers in his hair, pulling slightly. It made him push against her as the kisses got heated and deeper. Loki's mouth trailed down Sigyn's neck, while his hands snuck under her shirt.

"Stupid midgardian clothes..." He growled when his hand met her bra.

"Says the one wrapped in leather."

Sigyn pushed him back and smiled, making their clothes disappear in a flash of gold.

"Loki..." She said softly, touching the edges of the scar on the left side of his abdomen.

He didn't say anything, Sigyn had already seen what had happened on Svartalfheim. Instead, he took her hand and laced his fingers with hers.
Loki stepped back slightly and stared at her in awe. He took in her naked body slowly, eyes focusing on every patch of skin, every curve and every crevice, every dip and freckle. His gaze was so intense that Sigyn started panting, knowing exactly what he was thinking. His eyes dragged down her shoulders to her breasts, to the curve of her hips. He smiled, and ran his thumb over her hip bone, drawing a sharp gasp out of her.

He looked into her eyes. "You're as beautiful as the day I lost you."