My Sweetness

Deadly Peace

Not long after that night we were all working our usually long days. The brothers recorded music until late at night, shot videos at the crack of dawn and passed out at three in the afternoon while I left for my photoshoots.

It had been an eventful month full of numerous projects between the four of us. The time spent with Remington slowly decreased.

A week alone turned into four days, two days until finally five hours a day. We briefly shared a bed in that time. I would wake to him crawling into bed and fall asleep in his arms only to wake for work in a few hours.

It was easy and nice. No one pushed anyone around during the day. Both of us were free to run by our own schedules instead of having to constantly check in with each other. We could do everything we needed and wanted to do in an entire day in complete peace. At night we could confide in one another when we couldn't fall asleep due to a bad day, or simply lay awake for an hour as we felt the love seep into our skin and run to our core. That was the most beautiful part of this.

There was no trouble in our relationship. My nerves even calmed down about him and our commitment. I no longer feared his tough nature as I had seen him cry twice as many times as he had scared me. He held me at night and worked in the daylight.

The usual trouble that came with relationships was nonexistent. We only had love, no war.

I thought we could last forever like this. After all, it was my ideal relationship. It wasn't until our desires were tested that I think we both realized it simply could not work forever. I still remember the night both our hearts mutually broke.

I can still feel the pain in my chest as I breathed my last goodbye, and the pain in my head when I saw his soft face and heard his faint voice.

Long wait...