My Sweetness

Worried Sick

Palaye Royale <mgmt@palayeroyale.com>

to me

Hey,

I know it's been a while, and my emails have gone unanswered, but could you please make an effort to reply to this? That is, if you even read them. Remington is really messed up about your sudden departure, and to be frank, so are me and Emerson. Although, you and Rem were much closer than we ever were, we all still care and miss you. Provide us with at least an answer.

(702) 672-555

Sebastian

I shook my head and gave a humorless laugh. The ending chuckle of a laugh transformed into small sobs which grew larger with each breath I drew in. Soon my body was encompassed in loud, gut wrenching sobs that seemed to shake not only my body, but the entire van itself. Hot tears ran down my cheeks and dropped all over the keyboard.

Thoughts and images ran through my head at a rather violent pace which only resulted in more tears and louder gasps for air as well as allowing a headache to form. His beautiful face full of excitement, curiosity and wonder was replaced by one with a look of disappointment and sorrow.

I can't take it!

My arms wrapped tightly around my abdomen in an attempt to soothe the pain inside of me. The failed attempt only resulted in my urgency for the bathroom.

Weak legs carried me fairly quickly as I gagged and choked back the that bile battled to come up. Once my head was in the bowl, I let everything go as yet another sob escaped my lips.

"Worry yourself sick."

Those words bounced off the inside of my skull as waves of vomit exited my body.

"Worry yourself sick. You worry yourself sick!"

"I'm sorry, mom!" I screamed up at the ceiling.

After I flushed everything down, I curled up on the floor for the night.

There was no way I could take everything right now. Not the fact I hurt a man so innocent, and his family too, or how I felt as I thought back on everything, and not the words of my deceased mother floating around my head as a result of everything. I just cannot take it all.

I weakly dug for my cell phone and smiled gently as I pulled up the Palaye Royale business email. I copied the number at the bottom, inserted it into my dial, and finally pressed call.

A few moments of silence lingered prior to the familiar rings of a telephone.

"Hello?" A male voice greeted.

"Sebby," I breathed, "I-15, exit twelve, Welcome Center."

The lights started to fade and I could feel the phone slipping out of my had as I slowly fell asleep. I could hear many voices and a shout that brought me out of my daze for a split seconds before I fell right back into it. Everything was black, but right before I was out I heard a familiar voice.

"Daddy?" I asked in a small whine.

Have you caught on to what my little hidden gem was? I'll give you a hint, it's right in front of you at this very moment. I hope you enjoyed!