Hey, I'm Gay!

My Problem.

I feel like I can fully vent when I'm writing in this

My problem. OCD.

It gets to be so terrible that I cry at night thinking about how the house isn't clean. I often spend long periods of time cleaning and use excessive amounts of cleaning supplies  (I told my dad off because he didn't have many cleaning supplies whenever I go over)
Tonight I guess I was using "too much" soap when I was cleaning a cutting board and to me it wasn't enough
I still felt like it wasn't clean and I scrubbed it for five minutes until I was sure it was to my definition of cleaning
I rearrange items in the kitchen in a neat way because it bugs me for things to not be in order
And it feels so satisfying after it's all done that I can finally sleep

The worst thing is that I have to share a bathroom with two other people
And when they "clean" with me and it's just not good enough for me so I end up going through it all again and they get frustrated with me because they had "already cleaned it"
It's absolutely awful when I get home from my dads on the weekend and come back to a mess
My step brother leaves towels in the bathroom and it bothers me so much that I want to take it out but I'm also I complete germaphobe and I can't touch it without crying
The same thing with our bathroom rug, I rearrange it normally for three minutes in the morning before I take a shower, and I line it up with the wall and shower
And don't even think that I keep my stuff in that bathroom
I have to use a shower caddy and I put all of my stuff like shampoo and such in there because I don't want anyone else to touch them and get them nasty

I'm sorry this is so long guys, you probably won't even read through it but it's nice to write down

Another thing, my step sister and I were cleaning up the kitchen and I really wanted to clean the pots and pans but I was just put on drying duty, so when my step sister hands me the pots
THEYRE NOT CLEAN
And you better believe I went back into that kitchen and cleaned them

Whew
This has been a lot to get off of my chest, I've been keeping this inside me for a long time