It all began with a rainy day

Chrapter 33

I am so excited today Luke comes back form his tour with the boys I couldn't wait to see him and hold him and make up for lost time. I was going to meet him at the airport I was just so happy that I was going to be reunited with my baby . It has been hard with out him here the messages kept on flowing in and they were getting worse each day I promised myself that I wouldn't self harm but I broke that promise after I found a message that said

'why don't you just die in a hole Luke won't care about you all he cares about is his fans now '

I know I shouldn't really care about what people say but I have been getting the same messages for 5 straight days and there is a hate account about me and the pictures some people put on there is just haunting I have nightmares each day i get hardly any sleep i wake up screaming and calling Luke's name I just wanted to die it would make everyone's life better if i was just gone I made even deeper cuts on my thighs and I tried drowning myself but inside I couldn't do it I couldn't do this to Luke it would destroy him I couldn't let him break down like I have I just wanted to be in Luke's arms and feel secure but how could I feel safe if people don't want me alive .

I was in the kitchen making dinner for myself I was listening to louder by neon jungle I love that song

More volts in the system

Drown out the symptoms

Everything louder, louder

I don't want to listen

Just want to feel it, feel it

Louder, louder

I was putting my sandwich together I went over to the draw to get a knife when I felt someone's hands wrap around my waits I stopped what I was doing my heart skipped a beat there was only one person who I knew would do that I quickly turned around a saw Luke standing there with the biggest smile on his face I take out my earphones and I felt a tear coming

" mrs Hemmings " he whispered

" Luke it's really you " I jumped into a hug

His hands griped tight around my sides as he picks me up and spins me around the room I was so pleased to see him for once in this whole month I felt like I had something to live for Luke .

" I thought I was going to meet you at the airport" I said hugging him again

" you was but I got back early and I couldn't wait to see you" he replied

He leaned in and kissed my lips it felt so good I haven't kissed him in so long it was like a new life came to me his hands were placed gently on my cheeks I went to break apart but he dragged me back in for another smooch we did that for a while all the memory's for the repulsive messages and the painful mortifying scars on my thighs slowly disappeared all I could think about was Luke and how I got him back in my life . We finally broke apart Luke went upstairs to our bed room and up packed all his stuff away I sat in the kitchen eating my dinner my phone went off a couple of times but I just blank it all I cared about was Luke at this point my thighs started to get hot and ache but I couldn't do nothing about it . After Luke was done packing we both was sat in the living room I was lead out next to Luke on the sofa his arm loosely rested on my hip I enjoyed his comfort I missed him so much

" Daniella the UK was amazing we should go there one day there is so much to see "

" by what you tell me it sound amazing maybe some day we will visit the UK "

" it is truly breathtaking I'm going to show you the Big Ben and we are going to go on the London eye and I'm going to take you to Scotland and so many other thing "