It all began with a rainy day

Chrapter 51

5.....4.....3.....2.....1.....HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!! We all shouted from out side the front garden ashton and Calum pulled some party poppers and me and Chloe blew whistles Luke laughed and michael was shouting random things in the street . Everyone came out from there houses to say happy New Years it was like a street party at 12:00am . I got a message from Justine saying

' HAPPY NEW YEAR DANIELLA I hope you have a wonderful new year love you x'

I replied back ' thank you HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TO love you back xx'

I put my phone back in my pocket and looked at the fire works they were so beautiful and very loud Luke grabbed my face and smashed it into his he snogged my lips for a long time I could hear cheering and more bangs as our lips laced round together I pulled away

" I love you " I said

" I love you more and just think we will be parents this year " he said

" daddy Luke I could get use to that " I smirked and kissed his lips again .......

It's been 2 weeks since we had New Years and so far it's been amazing 5seconds of summer has played in the MTV awards and even brought back a astronaut for best lyric video and been playing sold out shows all over the world for next years tours . I was in the living room listening to some nirvana ' smells like teen spirt ' Luke was up stairs having a shower today we was going to the doctors to see if the baby was a girl or a boy I was so excited it will be the first time I will get to see the little thing inside me .

" hello little person in there it's mum your not kicking a lot are you " I said to the bump

It was silent there was no movement it must be sleeping I rested my hand on top of my stomach and listened to the music .

" hey Daniella are you ready to go " Luke said

" yeah you were quick " I replied

" I'm excited "

I got in Luke's car and he drove down to the doctors he rested his hand on my leg and smiled

" Luke what do you think it is " I asked

" I think it's a little girl " he replied

" really I don't have a clue "

" Michael and the others has made bets on it ashton and Calum think it's a boy and Chloe and Michael thinks it a girl.... just guess " he said

" ok ok ummm a girl... no boy I think it's a boy " I said

" How is it ?I haven't seen any movement lately " he said

" yeah it hasn't kicked in a while must be tired I think " I replied

We parked up and sat in the seating room it was quite the was not a lot of people here maybe a few little children and there parents but that was it . We waited about 15 minuets then my name got called out I was so excited Luke stood up but I told him to stay I wanted to be the first person to tell him he agreed and sat back down . I walk in and laid on a bed she asked me some question and put this cold jelly on the bump .

"Are you excited " she said

" yeah I am so excited I just want to know what it is " I said

" ok let's have a look "

1 hour later I walked out of the room shutting the door behind me I held my bump and slowly walked over to Luke he jumped up out of his seat and held my hands

" so what is it Daniella " he said

" It's... It's....a miscarriage " I cried out

His smile faded away and it turned into a frown I cried into his shoulder he held me tight and smoothed my back

" what, how "

" I d-don't know these things happen apparently....Luke were not having a baby I'm so sorry it's all my fault " I started to cry again

" Daniella it's not your fault I promise you it's not your fault ok you loved that baby you cared for it "

" Luke I'm was the one carrying it I must of done something it's dead...dead dead dead our little future is gone " I sniffed

" hey don't say that " he said

" but it's true can we plz just go home now " I said quietly

We walked out of the doctors and drives home i didn't speak to Luke at all on the way home all I could think about was the baby on Christmas Eve when it kick and all the time Luke was whispering to it . It's all my fault I called this baby stupid I never want it at first maybe it's a sign we was to young any way I held my stomach and put my head against the window Luke put his hand on my arm and rubbed it a tear slid down my cheek.

When we got home I noticed Chloe's and Ashton's car parked at the fount I didn't want to see or speak to anyone not even Luke I walked in and ran up the stairs not even saying hello to the others I jumped on the bed and cried into my pillow . I herd Luke talking to them down stairs but I stopped listening and held my bump my empty dead baby bump I didn't see that coming I thought that it was going to be ok we would have a family but that has disappears . I buried my face in the pillow and cried I was so upset so lost . Someone knocked on my door I didn't say any thing I just laid they

" Daniella "Luke's voice said quietly

I still didn't say anything

" I'm so sorry I know you must feel terrible " he said

poked my head up from the pillows and looked at his face was sad I sat up and wiped my tears away I probably looked a mess but I didn't care he opened his arm and I hugged him I cried up into his shoulder and griped him tight

" Luke it's my fault " I said

" it's no ones fault "

" but I said that this baby is stupid I never want this baby at first but I loved it so much and it just dies "

" that not your fault sometimes these things happen " he said

Ashton came in with the others

" Daniella " Chloe said

They all came in and sat on the bed I cried again and Luke began to cry as we'll we was both a mess but soon everyone had a tear to their eye I never let go of Luke I held him tight in my arms and he did to I sniffed a few times and laid on the bed everyone joined me and we all just talked I didn't say much in the convo I just listened Chloe kept on repeating 'it's going to be ok 'I just nodded my head and sniffed . A few minuets later Chloe Calum Michael and ashton left and it was just me and Luke I stayed in bed the hole day Luke brought me up some food but I didn't eat any of it I was still in shock I couldn't believe I have just lost my child our child I felt terrible . It was getting late now Luke was in the bed with me he put on a film for us to watch a happy film but nothing could make me happy not now I looked at the screen on the TV I felt Luke's hand on my waist

" Daniella if you want we can try again " he said

" no I just want to get married first that what I want to do " I replied

" ok babe " he kissed my cheek

I carried on watching the film until I fell to sleep .

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I actually cried on this chrapter I'm sad

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