FIFTY SHADES OF NEW LIFE

A&C

APOV

    OMG!!!! I'm Anastasia Rose Steele Lambert which every one said asexual, cold princess and nerd kissing and ask man as her boyfriend!!
O Jesus!! My birth parents will be proud of me right now, cause I open my heart for other person.

    After listened to all of Christian life story and what he experience as small kid is such horibble things. I'm sad for small poor kid who needs love but people around him make his life like hell, and for teenager who overcome such sad memories of his mother but the close friends of his adopted parents take the situasion for her sick behaviour.
Oh Christian why this bad things need come in your life??
Althought I know him for a week but from his eyes I can read if he is a incredible man with big loving heart which yearn love,happiness and need embrace.

     I never know anything about love but I know if I want to give Christian life he deserve, life full of laughter,love, happiness and I want embrace and hold his hand all the way future hold us together.
I need to strong for help him heal his wounded soul, I need be strong so he can lean to me.
God help me pleasee!!!
   
"Christian look into my eyes and listen carefully now!! You are not alone again, you have me beside you right now! Dont close yourself again please, tell me anything which me you worry, scare or anything!! I will listen at you and I will give you hug when you need it, hold your hand all the way to support you, and I will remind you when you do some mistake. Please always remember from now on you have me as your girlfriend and as your besfriend who will share sadness and happiness with you, okay!!!
I look at him right in his eyes so he can see if what I say is sincere and not just sweet talk. I want he feel my heart who want to support him and stand right beside him.

"Thank you baby, I never have any body tell me like this.I know I had my family but what they do is what other family do for each other. But you Ana is different, you are stranger who want to embrace the worst man like me without running to the hills after listen all my dark past. Thank you baby!!" He stroke my face with his palm and lean his forehead at mine. We not use say anything we just use our eyea to comunication with each other right now.

"You doesnt need say thank to me sweetheart. What you just need to do is trust me! Trust me if I will not ever let you down.
Lets open new page of our life and create life full of happy memories Christian. I know you have much experience in sex department but like you said that means nothing just bussiness. From now on lets make our own story and do new experience which we never had in our teen or our past.
Lets go to date like normal couple, lets cheer each other when one of us sad, and lets do all positive things together.
Will you do it with me sweetheart??"

"Yes. Million Yes baby. I want experience new life with you, I will try to be vetter man who proudly at himself as your boyfriend baby.
Please be patient of me baby, I cant promise you I will be perfect but I will try my hardest to make you proud of me!! Please trust me baby!!" His words so sincere and without doubt my eyes become watery and I hug him tight agains my body. I kiss his forehead and cup his face trying to make him understand if we will be fine together.

"Ok!! Now I know about your past Christian so you need to know about me too. I will tell you my boring life story, I hope you not get bored when I tell you!" I gigle to make atmosfer little bit lighter.
"I will never bored listen to you baby, trust me." He give chaste kiss.

"Huh kay. But lets eat our dinner and I will tell you my story between eat." I stand up and go to prepare our dinner.

"Christian can you help me prepare the table for us please!"
"Sure baby." He help me put the foods on the table.
"I make lasagna and salad for us tonight. I hope you like it!!"

"Its perfect for me baby. Do you want wine Ana??"
"Yes please sweetheart." He give me his megawatt beautiful smile and pouring wine for us.
He put our glass and sit down opposite me.
"Lets cheers for our new life baby!! For us." I rise my glass and cling it with him.
"To our new life sweethearth." I smile my shy smile. Its my first relationship in my life. I never think this time will come to me.
We begin to eat our food and Christian say if its so delicious and perfect.

"Ok now I will start my story, listen it please althought its will make you sleepy!!" I tell him with playfully giggling.
"Yes baby, ball at you now. Please start when you want baby." Christian is such gentleman. I like him so much.

"My birth parents is Raymond Steele and Charlotte Steele. My dad is a marine and mom is a designer interior who has her own office in Portland. We life a happy family, dad is really the most perfect man I ever know, he love mom and me so much. He always do everything I want and never let me sad. Mom is perfect mother and housewife, she is carier women but always have time for us. We always her number one prior, and she always cook for us every day. I love my family so much and thankfull to God give me my parents.
But its not long time until when I turn 13y.o my parents get accident when we drive to Seattle for my grandparent party. My gramp is a judge in here, the party is his last party as a judge before he retriere.
A car from opposite way with fast speed crashing our car. My dad use all his ability to steady the car but it speedy crash and our car out from the line and crash big tree. The mirror scathers and hurt my dad badly, my mom jump far away outside the car and die in the place."  I stop and take a deep breath and wipe my tears.
Christian know if I'm hurt and sad he sit down beside me and hug me.
"Stop it baby I dont want you cry because its upset you so much. And Im sad and sorry of your lost baby. Please dont cry anymore Ana!"

"No, I'm ok now. My dad lost much blood and die after that. I leave alone in backseat, the police and ambulance come and bring me to the hospital. Short story my life become different after that horrible accident. My gramp got heart attack and die leave alone in this world. Not long I need stay in foster home, Kate grammy Eva Kavanaugh is my foster care, she love me equally like her own granddaughter along Kate and her brother. We stay together for 2 years but when I am 15 y.o  a couple adopted me. They are not stranger for me because my adopted dad are my dad friends in marines.
My adopted parents are Franklin Lambert and Georgia Lambert. They are nice couple and love me unconditionally,they are didnot have child their own so I become the only child again. But we not stay in Seattle after that, we moved to Sydney and Kate come with us because she didnt want separed from me.
We stayed with my n3w parents, slowly my old happy life comeback to me. Mom and dad loved me so much and overprotective to me and Kate. We went to private school together, dad not really like boys come close to me because he thinks they are will treat me bad and just play with my naivety. But its not big problem for me because I'm not really interest to any boy at the moment. I just focus to my study and learn new things like sport, krav maga and painting.
Mom also so protective to me, she talk me about my safety as a girl. Hang out with me like friend and teach me how to cooking and baked. My real parents absents like never exist cause my adopt parent take a great care of me. As for my relationship with boy, I never feel the urge to have boyfriend on my own. I dont why but whenever I stay close with man I dont feel comfortable. I got name as Ice princess when still in Hardvard and that name still in the place until now at office.
But when the first time we bump at elevator I got little bit different feeling, you make me think of you after we meet again in elevator.
You can call me to open or without filter mouth, but its real me. I will voice out what I feel bad or nice.
And the kiss we had a minutes ago is my first kiss too." I give him a shy smile, and feel my cheek become blushing.

"You are so incredible baby, I never met a women like you before.
Heck I'm so suprised you never had kiss before too, but its not your first kiss either baby.
That was my first kiss too, I never kiss girl or women before.
Maybe before that bitch has kiss me when I work for her garden but its not pleasant memory and for the ex sub, I never kiss or treat them more than anything.
So is it ok if I call our first kiss as my first kiss too??"

"Yes of course sweetheart its more than ok to me.
I'm so happy to share my first kiss with you. Hope we can share more  our happy first together in future."

We continue our dinner with talking about our pleasant time.
Christian ask me to go for date tomorrow to celebrate our relationship, which I happily answers as yes.