Next Morning
Jacob
When I woke up, I seemed to be the only one in bed. I looked over at the time and it was 1 in the afternoon. My head suprizingly didn't hurt, and I felt good. I slipped on my cookie monster slippers, put on my house coat, then walked into the small livingroom that we have. Even though its small, its very pretty because I decorated it. because if it were up to Roc, we would have no furniture.
I looked over to my side, seeing the front door open, and Roc walk in. I rolled my eyes. "Where'd you go? Rayan's house?" I questioned, with a rude tone. ohhhh no, I didn't forget about Rayan. "Bae, for the last time, Im telling you, Rayan is nobody!" He scremed at me. "Don't Scream at me Chresanto!" I yelled at him. "Don't fucking call me Chresanto!" He screamed. "Well thats your fucking name isint it? I bet you let Rayan call you that when your hitting it from the back!" I screamed at him. "Jacob quit fuckin with me or ima hurt you!" he yelled. "ohhh yeah your gonna hurt me because you feel guilty! I confessed about Andrew! now I know what Andrew was talking about! your just a worthless peice of shit! I bet thats where you been every night! fucking Rayan! ohhh yeah I bet he feels WAY better than me! I guess im just old news to you! I actually had a reason to fuck Andrew! you didnt have a reason to cheat! you were never home! I was always home and willing to please you! but no! you go and fuck some nigga I dont know! Andrew was a 1 time thing! I fuckin-" I was cut off by Roc punching me in the face. I fell to the floor, and just stared at the ground, cupping my eye, letting tears fall freely. "B-Bae?" he questioned, kneeling down to me. "Get the fuck away from me!" I screamed. I started swinging and kicking anywhere. occasionaly hitting him. "I fucking hate you Chresanto! I hate you!" I screamed! he just sat there, hugging me tightly, while I screamed and tried to get away from him. He finally let go, and I got up, running into the room and slamming the door.
I finally decided to come out of the room, and get something to eat. I looked in the cabinets but there were only 2 empty cereal boxes, the fridge only had a bottle of water and some mayo and ketchup. "I bought you something to eat." Roc said, softly. I sat on the couch, far away from him, and pulled out the fries he had bought from McDonalds. I ate in silence, And he stared at me. "Im sorry Jacob." he said, but I just stared at the floor and took the pickles out of my hamburger, then started eating it. "Jacob?" He questioned, I looked up at him, but still didnt say anything. he came and sat Next to me, putting my food on the coffee table, sitting me sideways on his lap. I put my head in his chest. "Why did you hit me like that.. I know I was out f control, but you could've just ignored me." I said, crying. "I know baby... and I am so sorry I did that. let me see your eye." I looked up at him and he flinched. "Holy shit..." he muttered. I looked back down. "Ima go and put some makeup on it." I said, getting up and walking out of the living room, going into the bathroom. I finished everything I needed to, and walked back out to the living room, putting sunglasses over my eyes. Roc was sitting in the armchar, with a halfway zipped hoodie, and some sweats. "Ready to go?" he asked. I nodded and we walked out. we were just going to the park or something, to take a walk, and clear our minds.
It was night time already... the day had went by so fast... its like my life was Wasting, and I wasnt doing anything with it. I stared out our big window that we had in our livingroom, looking down at the city... there were lots of big buildings out in the distance, but none here. there werent many cars out either.. just the drug dealers, and gangs and stuff.. some day im gonna live over there... work in one of those big buildings, make lots of money, and not have to worry about being $300 short on rent... id just already have it in my pocket... but thats all just dreams.
"Wacha thinkin about?" Roc asked as he came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. I sighed. "Im gonna live there someday." I said looking out into the distance. Roc looked out there too. "Ill make sure that happens... ill make your wish come true someday." He said, laying his head on my shoulder. I smiled. "I love you." I said turnig aroud and kissing him. We had a small make-out session, then he pulled away. "Yep.. someday." he said, facing me toward the window again, and laying his head on my shoulder once again.
I sat in my room, occasionally getting up and throwing things around the room. I was pissed and crying.. Roc and I were in yet another argument, because we didnt have enough money to pay for rent for this month. Because Roc is a drug dealer, you think he makes lots of money. no.. Roc only sells once a week. he mostly does drugs instead of selling them. he sells when he feels like it. and he needs to do it every day instead of just doing it when he wants to. no, I dont have a job. and he says im his princess and he doesnt want me getting involved in drug dealing.
Roc walked in, and I gave him the ugliest look. "What the fuck are you lookig at me like that for?" he questioned, taking off his sweater. "Do we have enough for rent?" I asked. he sighed. "Nope." he said like nothing is going on... he plopped on the bed, and took out his phone. "Why are you acting like this is nothing?" I asked, getting furious. "Because... it is nothing." he said, glancing at me, and looking back at his phone. My face was turning red. I decided to walk out the room, before I ended up getting myself hit again, and sat on the couch. 3 minutes later I hear Roc and I's bedroom door open, and he walked out with his nike slippers on, sweats,a sweater, his phone and his car keys. "Where are you going?" I asked, immediately standing up. "Out." was all he said as he opened the door and walked out slamming it.
I walked into our room, and layed on the bed crying. its like... Roc doesn't care if were out on the streets with nowhere to live.... I do! im not able to bring any money in, only he is... and he's not even trying to! why do things have to be so hard! but what im really worrying about, is where the fuck he went. like... where did he go? a strip club? To work? To Rayans ho- oh hell no! I hope thats not where he's going! please don't let Rayan's house be where Roc is!....
