One Way Bridge

Confusion

Its been two weeks since my incident with Ulysses.
Seth has changed  drastically and I don't know who he is any more. We don't joke like we used to and most times when he does become Choky he lives me all by myself and locks himself up in his room for hours .I on the other hand can't keep my mind off Ulysses.
I stay up at night hoping he will come to me but every time he doesn't show up , it hurts worse than the last and I never knew being rejected felt so awful .I guess I understood Raphael now .
There is a knock on my door and I look round me .My room is opposite Mark's .Only he and Sebastian have tried to be around me .I guess everybody knows something I don't .
Or whose mate you are ...
Sighing I roll out of bed and open the door .It falls shut behind me and when I turn around I am faced by  a concerned Raphael? I step away from him .
"Sam..." He winces and shuts his eyes .He seems to be in pain .
"What's wrong ?" Despite how much he hurt me  I still can't find it in me to  gain pleasure from watching him hurt.
"I ...I ...am.." He clutches his stomach and exhales wincing.
"S..o..rry." He finishes off and collapses to the ground . I rush over to him but someone pulls me back . I hit a firm chest .
"Going somewhere ?" He asks as I stare stupefied at him . Ulysses . Part of me fills up with joy and another part just hates him because he made Raphael Suffer .
"Nope...I mean..yea.." I am cut when his lips come crashing down on mine . The room is chilly and I  shiver a little  as his fingers travel down my arm . He pulls away and steps back .Then the anger comes flooding in.
"Who do you think you are coming into my life and kissing me like that huh ? " I question him.
The look on his face is inscrutable . He is leaning against a wall besides my bed side lamp and the lights flicker on and off as he snaps his fingers .I notice his shirt is ripped now . The grey material torn to shreds .Burnt !
Looking down at my own clothes ...I gasp on seeing that my bra is starring right back at me . He chuckles as I try to cover up my nakedness with my hands .
"It's dangerous . That's why ." he States .
Why he didn't come . I am too busy rummaging through my closet to find a descent blouse to notice him step behind me .
"And I can be lots of trouble . You have no idea the urge I get when I am in the area . I want to watch it burn to ashes ."
All this while his fingers are dancing at my back. Massaging lightly , setting fire literally at every spot he touches .
"I long to destroy and now that I have you ....I am unstoppable unless you betray me." He grips my arm harshly and spins me round to face him.
I can feel his icy fingers tighten around my flesh and it groans for release .
"I wouldn't ." I exhale sharply in pain.
"Why should I believe you."
"I am your mate ,Ulysses .What would I gain from watching you in pain ?" He studies my face searching for a hint of lies.
"Nothing but pain too."I answer for him and manage to finally rip free of his iron grip.
" You need to trust me." I  add in a monotone .
"I know but its pretty hard to when you dealing with someone who is so pure and good." I stop and turn to him. His blue eyes meet mine and their intensity almost knocks me off my feet.
"Its scary ,Samantha ." he confesses and my soul aches.
"Is that why you stay away ?" He rakes his fingers through his hair.
"If you like we can fix that . Taint me." He starts to pace up and down the length of my room and I follow him.
"No."
"Please."
" I said no ,Sam."
"You can't make all the decisions in this relationship ." I stand my ground defiantly crossing my arms over my chest .
"And why the hell not ?" He barks at me but I am adamant .
"Because I am a freaking adult and I am entitled to my own opinion and decision on things .Especially those that directly concern me."
"And what if your decision ends up getting both of us killed ?"
"It won't !Because you won't ever leave me ."
"You are so naive ...so naive little one." I cringe .He can't be preparing to leave me after this. He just can't leave . I would rather hurt , have him reject me as long as I still got to see him.
"What do you mean by that ?" I croak finally finding my voice .
"I told you I have no heart or soul .I just act on what seems to be the perfect plan. I may wake up tomorrow and decide I want you dead,Sam. Then what ?"
"Then you kill me because if you ever think of leaving me ,Ulysses . I will . kill. myself . Mark my works." I spit at him and that takes him off guard because the expression on his face spells pure confusion . I stare at my reflection in the mirror .
Why did I just say that ? 
Because it's true.
You would die for him and because of him.
Was this love or simply an infatuation . The room starts to warm up again and  I know he is gone so I just drop to the floor and sit there with my legs pulled up to my chest and watch the girl in the mirror .
Raphael is still lying on the floor but something tells me he is alright and Ulysses only wanted his revenge .I also have this strange feeling that if I go anywhere near him he will be burnt to cinders .