Maybe, Just Maybe [Paused]

chapter one

I walked to school trying not to be noticed by the world. All my old friends kept trying to talk to me but it was no use , I still wouldn't answer. after relentless attmpts of 'hey you wanna hang out?' or just a simple 'hi, how are you?' they had given up on me. Even my closest friends like Shayna or Alexus couldn't get through. All had given up except Ally. Ally was my best friend who stil after months would not leave me alone. I have grown to despise human company. It only end's in heartbreak and misery. Like they say everthing good comes to an end.

           "I can see you under there Dakota." Of course it was Ally.She had been doing the exact same thing every morning with no luck of me even saying a word. I ignored her and kept walking but Ally kept up a pace beside me. This time she tried a new approach.Small chitchat."So wha't class are you going to now?"I shrugged. "Do you have gym today?" She asked knowing how active I was before the accident. Again I just shrugged. "Have you noticed any cute boys lately?" I shook my head. That was the absolute stupidest question ever! While I am trying to get over my father's death she thinks I have time to even think about guys.? Luckily we are at school by now so I can escape into the crowd and disapear. The last thing I hear is the bit of conversation between Alexus and Ally.

           "Are you still trying to talk to her?"

           "Not trying, tried. I tried."

         I take my seat at the back of the class like usual. Many teacher's don't ask me question's because they pity me. I hate having people's pity. I used to be the nice, sweet,smart girl who everyone knew. I was the one who was captain of the soccer team , I was the one who planned the fundraiser to help Victims from natural disasters, I was the one who was on the honour roll. I was that girl who had friends. And yet here I am now sitting at the back of the classroom with the quiet people who have no friends. I was the girl who used to be somebody.

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I Was walking down the hallway on my way out of school whrn someone accidentally bumped into me spilling all my text books on the ground. I expected the guy or who ever it was to just keep walking along like everyone else so I kept my head down and started picking every thing up. to my surprise he bent down.

            "Sorry about that," he picked up a few books and put them in my bag "didn't see you there." I looked up. Oh shit, I reconized that face.It was Dennis, Captain of the boys soccer team, swim team, hockey team and basketball team.My ex-boyfriend. We broke up after my dad died but he understood that I just needed space because of my dad and everything."Oh hi Dakota. How are you holding up?" No, not more pity!I was sick of everyone's pity! I don't need there pity! I could feel the tears registering at the back of my eyes starting to blurr my vision. I know he said it out of concern and it wasn't his fault. I quickly grabbed the rest of my books and hurried out as fast as possible. "Dakota?" Dennis said, not knowing what he did wrong.

            The tears started to come down as I ran home. Turning the corner onto my street something dropped out of my b ag but I didnt bother to pick it up. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket, indicating that I have a text. I knew it was dennis. I'll check it later I thought to my house. I was aproaching my porch at top speeds opening and slamming the door behind me. I fling my bag onto the floor, not caring to see where it lands. I shut the door quietly behind me out of habit from hen my dad was alive, he'd always get annoyed. Sitting on my bed, I pulled my knees up to my chest and sobbed. I sobbed until my tears ran dry.The door bell rang. I went to check who it was. My neighbor, Mrs. Dager, was standing there holding a plate of pasta and salad. She gave me a sad smile loading on the the pity. Was the world ganging up on me or something? I was infuriated by her kind words of pity but I hid it with a nod and a fake smile. I shut the door not even checking if she had more to say. I shuffled back to my room still annoyed. I checked my phone to see the text that I knew was from Dennis. I didn't text anymore because I didn't see a point to it, just like socializing and talking. I read the text in my head

Hey D im really srry if i said or did something wrong.i really didnt mean 2 will u forgive me:(

xxDennis

Normally I would ignore texts like everything else but I deep down I knew I should text him back. After all it isn't his fault.

Sure, it wasnt ur fault anyway just havin a bad day

Within minutes the reply came.

Well thats good to hear:)cheer up D. bi!

With a small bit of encouragment I did cheer me up. A bit. I went to my window to get fresh air when something caught my eye. I looked out my window to see my neighbor ,Piper I think her name was, throwing rocks at cans that were balanced on her fence. I've never really talked to Piper but I knew she was my age and a lolt of guys liked her. She was the wild, daring type. She had long straight dark brown hair with purpl low lights, olive skin and big brown eyes. she was pretty but not all frilly and innocent. Curiousity got the best of me and I talked. This went against all that I believed in.

         "What are you doing?" I asked.She looked around to see were the voice was coming from and smirked when she saw me.

        "Playing hit the can. Want to join?" This too went against all I beleived in.

        "Sure." And with that I ran down the stairs and out the door to join her.