18 reasons why (him) ↬ l.dh

12. of course i can't

"you know what, i was glad that you stopped instantly killing yourself but what make me upset is that you're doing it slowly. do you think crying, prisoning yourself in here and even skipping meals can help your depression? you're just making it worse!"

mark once again scolded donghyuck. but he always and never got any of his response.

mark just left and went back downstairs for his dinner. but suddenly, he got surprised when he saw donghyuck, coming from upstairs, heading towards him.

mark crept a smile but never uttered something to donghyuck even though he's just so happy to see him responding from his words.

donghyuck sat in front him and just stared down the food that mark made just for him.

mark sighed, saying, "that won't get into your mouth by itself, try moving your hands, will you?"

and donghyuck did his command, he at least ate it sluggishly, adjusting for his insipid taste.

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"where are you going?" mark asked donghyuck who is wearing his hoodie and a cap while walking towards the door.

"just breathe some fresh air." donghyuck answered shortly as typical for him.

"wait me then, i'm coming with you." mark immediately wore his jacket and came out the house with him.

along the silent walk, since the two just wanted some fresh air, mark finally decided to talk. "hyuck, do you like to drink that out?"

donghyuck just nodded his head as a response which resulted mark to get hyped up because donghyuck's slowly giving him a hint of recovery.

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it was minutes before midnight could arrive and the two just finished drinking with donghyuck still uttering nothing. he never opened up. it's just always mark talking to the air.

and at that time, mark just decided to call one of their friends to pick them up. so they then waited on the street pavement under a lamppost.

while mark was busy talking to that friend, donghyuck, on the other hand started walking across the busy road which resulted for the cars who were passing by to stop.

the road was filled with sound of car horns and people yelling until one fast car was just about to hit donghyuck as what he wanted but unfortunately for him, someone grabbed his arms out of the road.

"what the hell are you doing again this time donghyuck? i thought you were done with this! do you really want to kill yourself huh?" mark yelled at him.

"should i always tell you that hyung i wanna end my life! i wanna fucking die! why don't you let me do that? why can't you just shut the fuck up?!" donghyuck yelled back, yanking mark's hand that's on his arm.