It Isn't Actually a Secret [Jihan] (Eng)

" His Sweet Words "

" Did The clock just stopped Working ? "
 
 
Jeonghan's POV'

 
That day all the members were very nice and caring to me , S.Coups, Woziii Seokmin and Mingyu, were helping me to practice for my solo .

They taught me techniques to ignore the nerves and have a better vocal result.
But even so.. I felt that things were not going really well..

After a long time of practicing Mingyu asked if I was really okay to which I answered:

– Yes .. I'm fine, why :)?
—I'm telling you I'm okay...

 
(.. A great lie ...)

 
–Well, if you are not feeling well you can just rest for a moment you know? ... I'll go to the other room to practice, if you need something you can just call me.

"Mingyu said with concern on his face "

"I just nodded "

" by that time .. I already felt defeated "
 

" I had no confidence left on myself and even less on my voice "
 

"I tried to practice the song once more but ..."

 
 
 

" My voice was not coming out "

"I was way too nervous.. "

 

" I sat down leaning my head on the wall, and I looked at the clock hanged on the opposite wall  ..."

 
"There were only 20 minutes left till the evaluation"

 
 
"That was the first time I actually wanted to ran away from everything ..."

  

"I suddenly wanted to go home,
I really wanted to see my mom"
  

" And at the same time the lyrics of the song I had been practicing for so long
flooded my head "

 
"While looking at the clock I could feel how the dream I had been working so hard for...
was slipping through my fingers making my body tremble every time more with the feeling"
 

"Then Chan came and sat next to me"

–Jeonghan-hyung .. are you okay?

"At that time I couldn't even speak ..
So I didn't answer and just looked slightly down "

"After that I heard someone enter the room ..."
 

  
"It was Jisoo"
  
 
 
" When I saw him I couldn't help but to feel a bit relieved , but at the same time the feeling of wanting to leave everything was still there.. and grew every time i looked the clock "

" Jisoo sat next to me and took my hand,
And just.. looked directly at me with concern on his eyes "

"My heart had been beating a thousand per hour due to the nerves, but when I feelt Jisoo's hand reaching mine, was like if the clock I was so afraid of looking had just.. stopped "

"He said nothing..."

"He didn't even ask if I was okay like the other members, he just took my hand and remained silent while looking at me "

"Then .. I took his hand and pressed it on to my chest to make him feel my heart that seemed to be about to explode ... "