????Dangerous love????

training a confused heart pt 1

Izzy pov

I wake up a bit flustered as I quickly rise from the bed only to be knocked back down by someone else's head. "Ow" being as much as I can muster. "Sorry iz" clary who apologizes with a humorous look on he face. I brush it off. "So do you want to tell me why your in my room before I had even woken up?" I look at her for answers, noticing her frail figure scooting father away from me in reaction to my words. "Um I just wanted to see if you'd like to hang out today? I know things have been pretty busy lately and I wanted to make some time for us." She looks at me with hopeful eyes and I can't help but smile. Before I have time to give her an answer she speaks again. "I know that we have been getting rather close lately and I've really been enjoying it. I just want to know if this is something that your into" i figure out something to say quickly before she makes her rebuttal. " I'd really like that but you know that the way we have been getting is a bit.......unusual to say the least, maybe we should just keep this to ourselves for now." I try to explain to her but she gives me an astonished look. "What do you mean unusual. What's so bad about us being intimate?" She says with a tone that does poorly to masks her hurt expression. "I'm just not ready to broadcast my business to the world ok? This doesn't concern anyone else so I don't get why this is something other people should know about" I state my speech with aggression and haste, both not what I intended but what I meant. "So what are you ashamed of us?" Clary asks frantically getting up ready to leave the room. "There is no us Clary, god. Stop trying to force me to be something I'm not." I throw off my cover, get off my bed and head for the door, only to make her go on the other side of it. She looks at me, stunned by what I just said and honestly so was I. "Glad we got this all cleared up huh?" She lets out a small sign with a fragile tone. She slowly exits my room and a part of
me wanted to apologize. A part of me wanted to get her to stay. But I didn't