pulvis et umbra sumus

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i know change is inevitable, but still, i fear the day when everyone i love the most starts glancing at me like i'm just a stranger to their party.

maybe i'm just overthinking, but i feel like they're all drifting away from me now. i do not know if i should still try to hold them back, or just leave them be. i love them but i am just a ghost -

and a ghost does not own anything and anyone.

like a ghost, i can love, but i cannot hold the ones i love. because deep inside, i know -

i do not deserve them...
and they do not belong with me.