Troubles (Chresanto August Story)

Chapter 6 : Issues

As soon as she left I walked back to the living room where the party was I looked for Diamond but I didn’t see her but I saw someone I didn’t want to see my worst enemy. Legacy, Legacy from the new boyz, we never got along even during the tour days. Last night he was talking shit about my music but he never @'d me. The tension was so thick I knew it was gonna pop off in a couple of seconds and I was ready. I sat down on the couch and propped my legs up as he was talking to some ladies near him. “Hey ladies stop fucking what that pussy nigga over there and fuck with a real nigga over here” I laughed dapping up my friends.

“Coming from a nigga that uses guns but no hands” Legacy snapped. I got up and began walking over to here “Lies I got my hands right here so wassup? I yelled lifting up my pants. I was ready “You aint nothing but a bitch made nigga that cant rap how bout you take your wake ass back to Mindless Behavior so you can pay off your child support for that ugly ass daughter of yours” he spat laughing with his friends. I completely lost no one talks about my family. I pushed him “Don’t fucking bring my child into this” I yelled. He pushed me back “Nigga you aint gonna do shit about it” he said. I punched him dead in the face knocking him against his friend. He looked down at his nose to see blood on his hands.

“Oh my gosh Chres stop at my party really? Loren yelled.  “Who's the bitch now legacy how about you go back to that dry ass sound cloud group of yours” I laughed. He tackled me to the ground and started punching me. His friends pulled him off of me and I quickly jumped up and hit him again before my friends pulled me back. “Nigga next time @ me and be relevant before you talk shit bitch nigga” I screamed.

 

The Next Day

 

Spring

I woke up feeling a little better, I knew it would take a while to get over Antonio but I'm willing to. I'm tired of being sad and it's only been a couple of days since he dumped me. I grabbed my phone unlocking my password logging on to instagram. I looked at all the pictures I was tagged in at the party and then I scrolled down my TL to see everyone talking about some fight Chres had with some dude. And was wasn’t I surprised, I was fed up with him because he's so violent and I need to get to the bottom of this he wasn’t always like this. I watched the video and I felt so disgusted, I had enough. I wanted the old Chres the happy and goofy Roc Royal with the train’s conductor hat back. I got up from my bed and walked over to my computer and printed out a picture of the old roc vs. the new roc. When I was done I placed them in my folder.  I quickly hopped in the shower I didn’t feel like beating my face or anything I had to see him now. It was now 11:30 and his appointment is at 1pm.

 

An Hour Later

I sat in the waiting area waiting for Spring to let me in. Everyone was staring at this cut on the side of my face. “I'm ready Roc” She yelled with a bit of an attitude. Usually she comes and gets me but I guess not today. I didn’t want to be here with her anyways I was still kind of of mad at her tormenting me yesterday like I was her child. I sat down on my chair and it was a long pause. We didn’t speak I looked at her I noticed she wasn’t all made up like a Barbie doll today. I could tell she didn’t even want to look at me.

She sighed shaking her head“Roc Roc, Roc”

I rolled my eyes and placed my head back. “So you got in another fight huh, it's all over world star” She said. “And, you weren’t fighting so why are you worried?  Yo I don’t like coming in here” I snapped. She looked up “You know what Chres, I'm done with you ,if you don’t want to be here then just leave no one is forcing you to be here you can continue to look a fucking hot mess for all I care” She snapped. I sucked my teeth and getting up “You're right I don’t care anyways Imma do what I want regardless I don’t have to be in this bullshit ass suite” I yelled. She stopped me from leaving “Chres sit back down” She demanded getting in front of the door. So I couldn’t leave I got in her face “MOVE” I shouted. I heard someone knock on the door “Are ya'll okay in there” Lauren asked.

“Yeah were fine Lauren” She said. “Chres even though you're a difficult person I want to help you but you got to meet me halfway” She said. I wanted to push her out of the way so bad but that's not a manly thing to do. “Spring move yo” I yelled clenching my jaw. “You know I can see right through you Chres” She said. “Don’t read me that bullshit you don’t know shit about me you can’t see shit” I snapped walking away from the door and sitting back down. Moments later she walked back over to her desk in front of me.

Spring

I grabbed my manila folder and took out two pictures and placed them in front of him. And he had a shocked look on his face almost like he didn’t want to look. “Look at picture A” Roc she demanded. He sucked his teeth and looked to the floor. “Nah I'm good” he said. “Look at it Roc, when you look at the picture I want you to tell me what you see” I said. I was getting emotional because I desperately wanted to help. Even back then when I noticed his changes in his behavior. He didn’t say anything but I could tell he was thinking. “I see a cheerful happy 14 year old with no worries. Just happy and positive and sweet as pie” I smiled. And then I pulled out the other picture of him now “I see a lost angry man filled with rage, he's hurt and mad at the world and has been through a lot. I also still see that little happy roc trapped inside you trying to escape but he can’t” I explained. He bit his lip and placed his hand on his face. He got up

“Fuck that philosophy shit you coming up with. You don’t know what I've been through even through the younger days I was still going through shit and no one cared. My dad was never there for me and then when I became big he wanted to be in my life and claim me. He has multiple sons but he never chose to raise me then my mother all she does is take from me. I'm just tired of people fucking me over” he explained. “And you give them people the power to do so, come on let’s be realistic here all the people you hang with are only associated with you because of what you have you have to associate yourself around people just like you. So you won’t be used. Why did you think I was asking you all those questions about that girl? She asked. “I wanted you to think hard at what I was saying that girl used you thinking she could be the next girl to play temporarily girlfriend hoping she could spoiled and blinged out. Or even your ex what did she contribute to you but sex which was nothing, you gotta let people get to know the real you Chresanto August not Roc Royal.  “No the Ohh that's Roc Royal let me butter him up and treat him like a friend so I can get benefits type of person.Who do you think is gonna be there if something bad happens? She asked.

“No one because no one cares about me, man I always make sure but what do I get in return nothing man I'm  about to be on some cold hearted shit since no one cares” he yelled

“I- care Chresanto” I said. He stared at me “What? He asked looking at me like I was crazy. “I care for you Chresanto I truly do” I said wiping a tear from my eye. He started to break down and I slowly walked over to him and embraced him in a tight hug. He cried even harder on my shoulder “It's okay to cry you know, that doesn’t make you less of a man or anything Chres. You've just been through hell and you have to cope you can’t keep it bottled in forever” I said softly. We walked over to the couch and he cried right back on my shoulder. “I promise you, I will help you, I won’t leave or give up on you “I said and he just gently nodded his head.

Poor RAWK :(

Can she help him?

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