SOTUS BEHIND THE ACT

There Is No Return Now (E)

EXPLICIT CONTENT

KRIST

I looked at Singto and the reality had sinked in. I cared so much for him. He was the person whom I ever wanted. And in my mind I was constantly aware how I would never be able to go back from that. Not even if I denied to myself how in-love I was with the man who was right here, right next to me.
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His voice woke me up from my thoughts.

"I need a condom" he said.

As soon as he did, my mind went back to the memory of me putting a condom in the pocket of my jeans. I actually felt lucky that the condom was gonna be used after all. At the end it didn't turned out to be useless.

My sight was kept still as I continued to stare at P'Sing opening the condom and taking it out of the small package.

As he did, I felt nervous but excited.

Mixed feelings were rushing all over my mind and body just at the same time. And a sense of a rush and adrenaline was making my heart pump louder and faster every time his fingers rushed against my sensible skin.

For a few seconds my mind had gone completely blank as I was trying to stay focused. 'Breathe, just breath Krist'

A part of me wanted him to do it now, the same part that wanted him to be inside of me as soon as posible.

As I looked at him, to me he was beautiful. He was my friend and I knew him like no one did, but at the same time, being able to see this side of him as his lover was completely addictive.

It was a hard feeling to describe...

He was right here in front of me, yet I knew how selfish I was for wanting to become his everything. I wanted him to hold onto me and never let go. I was still that person who needed this type of reassurance. Because now I was not able to lose him.
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I was aware of how this wasn't the moment to think. But P'Sing forced me to look further than myself. It didn't took me too long to realize how I had started to think about him more than I did about myself. Singto always found a way to make me wonder.

As we were both in the bed I felt him move, making me aware where I was and and what type of situation I had in front of me. I was too focused on trying to prevent my chest from pounding harder than what it already was.

"Give it to me" I said as I took the condom off from Singto's hands. He stared at me as if he was surprised by my sudden demand.

"I-I want to put it on for you..." I confessed.

I did not even thought twice about the situation or how I may had look in-front of him. Right now all I wanted to have was this moment of us... of him.

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I was laying down with my back touching the mattress as I then sat on my knees in order to put the condom on Singto's cock.

As I slightly passed my hand around his dick, I was able to see him starting at me and what it was that I was doing. I grabbed his dick as a licked his member with my tongue, watching his dick throb as I teased the tip of his cock. As an effect, in order to  support himself he grabbed my  shoulder to hold himself still in order not to move.

Subsequently, I took the condom and slowly started pushing it downwards towards the bottom of his dick.

I couldn't prevent myself from thinking about the stuff I would do for him, but I was more glad to realize that in fact; I didn't cared at all as long as it was me who could be this type of intimate with him. Just him and I.