Curly Hair Chronicles

Chapter VIII: "We all go through pain..."

I just stood there and watched as my mother was being buried into the earth.

It seems like just yesterday I was about four years old at the park with her and my father, playing on the swings.  Now it's like my world is upside down.  To say I was sad wouldn't even be enough. I'm angry, confused, heartbroken, and most of all terrified.

My brother wrapped his arms around me, assuring me that everything will be okay. Little did he know, it wasn't, everything was far from being okay.

Family members passed by paying their condolences. And all I could do was nod. I received many hugs, even from family members I've never even met.

When I got home I didn't want to even go inside. I just couldn't, things would never be the same, but I knew I had to.

I walked into the house, my brother shutting the door behind me. He had tears in his eyes but I don't even know why he's crying, he was never here anyways, I was. If anyone should be crying it should be me, not him.

He sat his keys on the counter, looking at me.

"Are you okay? " he asked

"Do I look okay?  No I don't. I'm not even near okay.  So just leave me alone" I said taking my coat off

"Look your not the only one who lost somebody today, we all did. "

"What do you mean by 'we '? I LOST SOMEBODY TODAY! "

"STOP BEING SO SELFISH! You're trying to make everything about you.  Some of us lost a mother, a sister, even a friend.  We're all sad about it, but you don't see us getting angry at one another"

"Stop saying us.  I haven't seen more than half of those people at the funeral in years, some I've never even met. They never visited mom and I, nor have they called or even texted. It's always been me and her.  You haven't even been here either. "

"You know what,  I don't even want to talk about this," he said grabbing his keys, "I'll be back around nine. I have to bring some of my stuff"

"What stuff? You don't need to bring anything. Stay exactly where you are.  I can take care of myself.  The same way I have for the past few years since you left. "

"Well I'm staying this time" he said slamming the door.

I couldn't believe him.  Now that moms gone he thinks he could just come back and put the pieces back together. That's not how it works. He should've done this while she was still alive.

I stormed into my room slamming the door.  I finally broke down,  tears falling and anger building inside of me.  I saw a picture of me and my mom sitting on my dresser and immediately picked it up and threw it against the wall shattering it. I couldn't take it anymore.  I just started throwing things until the pain went away, but it didn't.  My back slid down the wall as I cried with my knees up to my chest.

Someone started knocking on the door and then walked in.  It was Chase.

He ran over to me wrapping his arms around me. He thumbed my tears away, soon kissing them away.

He kissed my lips,  then my neck then my shoulder blades.

"I'll take the pain away" he said kissing my lips.

I kissed him back hungrily, wanting him entirely.

Chase pulled me into his embrace, sitting me on his lap.  His fingers roamed through my curls pulling me closer.  I wrapped my arms around him taking his shirt off.  We kissed each other,  deepening the kiss.

He took my dress off along with my bra, and then my underwear.  I took off his shirt, revealing his muscular chest.  I kissed his abs moving lower unbuttoning his jeans as I did it.

He flipped us over.  I lay naked beneath him as he kissed me from head to toe. Chase soon entered me as his lips connected with mine.  I moaned as he sped up the pace.  He wrapped his arms around me going deeper. I matched his strokes  as he brought me to climaxes I've never experienced.

We both laid there on my bed looking in each other’s eyes as we caught our breath.

"Look I know you might feel like your world is falling apart, trust me I know the feeling, but you'll make it through. God puts his strongest soldiers through the hardest battles. You're one of them. It might be hard now but once you make it through you'll know just how strong you are. We all go through pain in our life,  but it's the way we deal with the pain that makes us who we are" He told me looking me in my eyes.

I kissed his soft lips.

"I Love you so much Amelia."

"I Love you too Chase."