It All Started With You

Chapter 4

{(I'm going to start this chapter off with a HUGE trigger warning, anyone dealing with depression and/or suicidal thoughts or actions should take caution in the following content)}

Ludwig had just come home from work, he took off his coat and hung it up just like he always had. He laid down on the couch, too tired to walk all the way to his room. He could hear the water running and brushed it off as his brother taking a shower. He looked at the clock, 5:08 PM, he could take a nap, and talk to Gilbert when he woke up. 

Sometime later, he woke up slowly, sitting up and stretching. He sat in silence for a second before realizing the water was still running. Looking up at the clock once more, 7:36 PM, Gilbert never showered for long and Ludwig knew this. He got up from the couch, sure he liked to sing a lot in the shower, but he's never taken this long before. He knocked on the door "Gil?" With no answer, he became worried and knocked again a bit louder "Gil, if you don't answer me, I'm going to have to come in!" With still no answer, Ludwig twisted the doorknob slowly and pushed it open. The scene before him caused Ludwig to freeze and then fall to his knees, and to yell as tears streamed down his face.  In front of him was his brother, dead, lying in his own blood. He looked at the lifeless body of his brother in front of him, it hurt him so much to see him like this. The tears streaming down his face were making it very hard to see, but he could tell that the blood was coming from his wrist. He could also see a piece of paper lying beside him and picked it up. He took a deep breath and unfolded it. As his eyes scanned the paper the tears only seemed to fall faster. 

Hallo Bruder... 

I'm so sorry you had to see me like this, but I couldn't do it anymore. I had been feeling less and less awesome lately, and more and more upset. Though, I never let you see that side of me because as you're older brother my concern was to make sure you were okay. That being said, please do not cry or be upset over me, move on, you'll be okay! Bruder, you're strong, stronger than I ever was, I believe you can do great things in this world and help so many people. You've just got to put yourself out there. I'm so proud of who you've grown up to be. So as my final request, I ask that you find someone, someone to love and who loves you back, make the most of your life, and make it a long one! I'll be waiting for you, and I can't wait to hear the stories of your long life, but for now...

Goodbye,

Gilbert Beilschmidt

A tear fell from his face and onto the paper. He quickly folded the paper back up and moved it away from his face. This was the last message he would ever have from Gilbert he wanted to save it.

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Translations

Bruder (German)- brother

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Well, I hope you enjoyed this part! I apologize for the angst, but it'll get better, I promise!

~•~Mason~•~