JACK'S POV
i laughed as lilly poured more alcohol into my glass, i really didn't want anymore but she just kept on pushing me and i thought i couldn't say no.
i had no idea where i was. all i knew was that i was with lilly. i can vaguely remember the uber driver dropping us off at a little apartment and i can barely remember what happened we after that.
"lilly, that's-that's enough", i slur.
"no c'mon sit back", she says, pushing me back roughly with her hands and pouring in more alcohol, "relax."
my head was spinning and i kept on seeing kiara's face. i hadn't kiara in practically two months, all of this was so fast, in such a small amount of time.
my ex, my ex's best friend, an instagram model, an instagram model's baby....that's mine, but all i could think about now was lilly.
i mean i couldn't really think about anything else, she was all up on me. i needed to go somewhere, anywhere just not here, not right now.
lilly was getting frustrated, like really frustrated. she wasn't drinking an ounce and seemed to only be focused on getting me intoxicated.
a few minutes later she went into the kitchen and came out with a little orange container filled with tiny little white pills.
she walks over and places the container in my hand, "they're for anxiety.", she says.
i knew that, i knew that the minute she walked out with them, how could i forget?
i try collecting my thoughts and making sense of what she was saying, after a few seconds i finally respond, "lilly, i know what these are", i say, handing her the container back. "i can't get addicted to something...again".
she starts getting frustrated and opens the lid of the container herself, "you know you can trust me.", she says placing a single pill in my hand. "right?"
right. my head was spinning and i couldn't stop and think, i can trust her. there weren't any other words but yes coming out of my mouth.
i nod my head and take the pill without question. a few minutes later the xan really starts to kick in and i start feeling drowsy .
"give me your phone", she says softly, without waiting she snatches it of me and types my password in.
i wanted to stop her.
before i can stop her i feel myself slowly sinking into a weird sleep.
blackness.
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