Bet ~Jean x Reader AU~

Epilogue

What was I thinking? I pondered, glancing down to my side. Laying on his stomach, his bare back to me was Kellen. He was sound asleep, gentle snores coming from him, nothing but my comforter shielding his lower region. I scanned him, noting how the shadows blanketed over him. His once neat hair was now a mess, loose curls brushing against his face. He appeared so peaceful...so calm.

That made one of us.

I sat on my bed, nothing but an oversized t-shirt clothing me, my own h/c locks tangled into a mess. My legs were pulled to my chest, my arms locked around them. My body felt so numb, my chest heavy. I felt so dirty and so alone, the regret already barreling down on me. I knew what I had done was foolish -I knew I shouldn't have, but I didn't stop myself. I let it happen...I let myself fade out and I lost it.

I brought my gaze to Kellen's upper back, taking in the bright pink lines and how they glistened in the pale hues. Scratches. Scratches from me digging my nails into his flesh. Scratches that I had left behind because I lost sight of myself. And now that it was all said and done, I was regaining my bearings. My composure was returning, and I regretted everything.

I ran my fingers through my hair, glimpsing down at my feet. Idiot. What the hell were you thinking? I scolded myself. Fucking moron. I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling the warm tears roll down my cheeks. I was so disappointed in myself. I couldn't believe I had done that...that I had allowed myself to participate in meaningless sex with a guy I didn't even remember a few hours prior. But I had and there was no changing that.

Just as I felt myself slipping into my self-pity, I heard my phone vibrate. I glanced over at it and just barely caught the message displayed on it.

Dad: I don't know what's going on, but know I love you

**Ello my sweet lovelies! I know, I probably surprised y'all with this abrupt ending, but I thought a cliffhanger (kinda?) was a decent way to end it. Don't worry. I will be returning on Monday, October 8th with the second book, Believer ~Jean x Reader AU~. We still have a stalking creep to worry about, the photographer, Nala, Y/N's sketchbook, and Y/N's parents to deal with! So, stay tuned for the next book! As always, thank you SOOOOOOO much for everything! Y'all are wicked awesome! I look forward to seeing ya in the next book! Wuv yous!! <3**

-Noel Ross