Sebaciel oneshots

Can you save me?

Warning!: Angst up ahead

Au: Canon verse but without Sebastian being a demon just plain old Sebastian and Ciel who has a thing going on for his butler. oh by the way his parents are still deaderz, sorry buddy.

Summary: Ciel has had enough of oblivious cat obsessed butlers and dying without having any chance, so when the going gets tough he finishes the job himself.

Ciel Phantomhive looked over at his lovely patch of white sterling roses as the breeze rolled in, they glinted in the summer sun as he walked towards the nearest one and caressed it's petals. His days were limited, he knew that and it was hard to accept the fact that he was to kill the Phantomhive name with no child to inherit his fortune, but really how could he think about children when his sickly 17 year-old self can't even handle the disease in his body? no, Ciel would much rather die than pass his condition to future children, after all his mother had the same sickly body as him.

But this time, it was no common cold or a bout of the flu, Ciel Phantomhive was going to die sooner or later because of his stupid lung cancer and it was no fair...not at all.

Ciel sighed and gently slid his hand lower to the stem of the rose before gently picking one out, careful of the thorn that the beautiful flowers had. the turned the precious thing over in his hands, examining it carefully. "Pretty little thing" he murmured to himself "no wonder people look at you with such awe, you seem harmless and beautiful yet you project such a powerful symbolism for humans, i'm almost jealous" Ciel mused, he took his walking stick and settled down on the chair once again looking up at the sky, it was a gorgeous day, the clouds were big and fluffy and the birds flew above giving out faint chirps as they passed by, though it did look like it was going to rain sooner or later, maybe around in the late afternoon for he could see few dark clouds looming in the distance.

"My lord?" the familiar silky voice called out to him, he smiled internally as the young one turned his head to find his butler, Sebastian Michaelis. He was the definition of a perfect butler, sex on legs and other attractive stuff you could think of, but to ciel he will always be Sebastian, the man who he fell for, the man who was there when no one else was, the man who loved him dearly and had seen through him when no one else cared, he was everything to Ciel..the problem was that Sebastian was an oblivious fucker and was not aware of the fact.

Ciel chuckled to himself for thinking he ever had a chance with someone like him, it would not be good for his status and the fact that he was underaged and Sebastian was 23 years old about 6 years older than him and the fact that...well they were both guys! no such relationship was ever good to the public eye but it wasn't Ciel's biggest problem, his biggest ordeal was the man didn't feel the same...well at least that's what he thought.

"My lord, we must go back inside, I insist you rest" he said with that usual worried tone in his voice accompanied by an expression that no one could deny, but Ciel can..he had practiced and mastered on how to counter Sebastian and for his last few months he was going to use that knowledge until his last breath. "Oh stop with the worrying Sebastian, I only came outside to get a whiff of that fresh air, would you like to join me?" Ciel quipped, patting the empty space beside him and gesturing for Sebastian to have a seat, the man clad in black could only sigh and comply. Ciel inwardly smiled to himself, works everytime.

Ciel looked down at the rose in his hand and felt the overwhelming pain of having to leave before he was even ready, he had a future and no matter what it would have been, as long as Sebastian would be a part of his future then he would grab that in a heartbeat. But no...it was not to be.

"Tell me Sebastian.. Honestly, do you fear death? " Ciel asked, feeling the thorn on the rose and purposely dragging his finger against it, drawing blood.
"Death is innevitable, Young Master, i do not attempt to think of it as frightening, instead it would come as the gate to the other life" Sebastian answered slowly, not knowing that the young boy was already loosing hope, he knew that while he was still alive he should grab what little thread of life is left nd maybe.. Just maybe that might help him.