Sebaciel oneshots

Continuation Of "Your Freedom"

Written in Sebastian's point of view

It has been 5 years since the passing of my late young master. The feeling is... How can i describe it. Painful yet numb. I never thought i would ever get to exprience this emotion again. It shouldn't affect me for i am a powerful demon. Hellbent on eating the most delectable of souls, to catch one human after the other. To stay beside them for a while and move on.

But Ciel... Now that is a person i cannot seem to move on from. After the intial shock of his death, i had tried everything in my power to bring him back. I went to the very depths of hell, searching for answers, enlisting the assistance of my fellow demons, Hell, i even asked Lucifer himself. But it was not to be, his body was there but his soul was to shattered, to far gone to wareant any chance of saving.. And it was all my fault. Part of me was confused as to why i should care but a big part of me kept calling out to him, kept on yelling in my head that it was not real. None of it was. That he was still alive, that he would still wake up the next day and that i would see his face be animated by the faintest of smiles and his signature scowl.
For years i have traveled alone, watching as the world revolved and continued to turn as if my pain was but an insignificant thing. The world would be okay without me, it would still evolve and live happily while i'm stuck in limbo. Wondering where the hell i went wrong when i myself knew the answer to that question clearly.

It's not fair though! It wasn't my fault! If it werent for that stupid brat Alois and that good for nothing Claude my young master would still be here with me. If it weren't for that bitch Hannah i would still have him!
IT'S ALL THEIR FAULT! YES THAT'S RIGHT. They are all to blame.
My love... Died so young. I didn't even get to say goodbye.. I never got to tell him how much i love him, how much i want him to stay with me for the rest of my miserable demon life.

And as i continue to walk the Earth alone, i have abandoned my taste for souls, the thrill of killing is gone, the thirst for blood has vanished and my love.. My love is nowhere to be found.
Maybe i deserved it. After all, what is a demon without it's chains that binds them to the Earth and below.

Ciel... I'm sorry My Love.