Being Different (D.Winchester)

1.53 "I'm Already Having a Hard Time"

We were all loading the guns. Ruby was still down there.

Sam sighed "We're just gonna let Ruby rot down there?"

I rolled my eyes.

Dean "That's the idea. "

Sam " Dean, what if, uh... What if Ruby's right? What if I can take out Lilith? "

Dean glared at him.

Sam "Quit looking at me like that. "

Dean " What, are you gonna give her the Carrie-stare and Lilith goes "poof"? "

Sam " I don't know what Ruby meant. You know, maybe we should just go ask her."

Dean " Sam, you wanted the knife – Our girl got you the knife."

I smirked amused "our girl?"

Dean winked at me.

Sam " Dean, just listen to me for a second. Last time Lilith snapped her fingers and put thirty demons on our ass, and all we got's one little knife? I mean, like you said, we go in smart or we don't go in at all. "

Dean" Well, this ain't smart. "

Sam" We got one shot at this, Dean. Just one. So if there's a sure-fire way then maybe we should just talk about it. "

Dean walked up to him " Sam. We are not gonna make the Same mistake all over again. "

Sam " You said that but what does it even mean? "

Dean" Don't you see a pattern here? Dad's deal, my deal, now this? I mean every time one of us is – is – is up the creek the other is begging to sell their soul. That's all this is, man. Ruby's just jerking your chain down the road. You know what it's paved with and you know where it's going."

He sat down next to me against the table.

Sam shook his head a bit " Dean. What do you think is gonna happen? This is me, I can handle it. And if it'll save you-"

Dean looked at him " Why even risk it? "

Sam looked away for a second and then back to him "Because you're my brother. Because you did the same thing for me. "

Dean scoffed "I know... and look how that turned out. "

Sam looked away.

Dean sighed "All I'm saying.. Sammy, all I'm saying is that you're my weak spot. You are. And I'm yours."

Sam choked out "You don't mean that. We're... we're family."

Dean nodded " I know. And those evil sons of bitches know it too. I mean, what we'll do for each other, you know, how far we'll go? They're using it against us. "

Sam asked irritated " So what? We just stop looking out for each other? "

Dean shook his head " No, we stop being martyrs, man. We – we – we stop spreading it for these demons. "

Then he grabbed the knife from my hand "We take this knife, and we go after Lilith our way. The way Dad taught us to. And if we go down, then, uh... then we go down swinging. What do you think? "

Sam thought about it for a second " I think you totally should have been jamming "Eye of the Tiger" right there. "

I chuckled.

Dean "Oh, bite me. I totally rehearsed that speech, too. "

Sam smiled at that.

Me " Indiana, huh? "