Mafia Wife

Chapter 20

Noah's POV

I stormed into Leo's apartment with my anger boiling. "What the fuck is wrong with you!"

He looked up from the bottle and removed the blunt from his lips. "Worry about your own issues, Noah."

"No." He snapped. "I'm not letting you fucking push anyone around anymore!"

"Then fucking do something about it!" He yelled.

I tackled him off the stool making his head hit the counter. I started punching him till I realized his wasn't fighting back.

His face was bloody from the hits but he was out cold. I cursed to myself, knowing that I knocked him out when I slammed him into the counter.

I picked him up and laid him on the couch. I walked out of his apartment and back to mine.

I opened the door and saw Tay sitting on the stool with a bottle of rum. "I knocked him out." I took the bottle of rum from her.

"I know he is a brother to you." She sighed.

"Not when he does that to his own girl." I hissed and took a swig from the bottle.

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Leo's POV

I pressed my head against the shower wall as all the memories flooded in. 

I walked into the bedroom to find a kid with his head resting in his bloody hands. "What did I do." He mumbled to himself as he shook his head. 

"Fuck!" He yelled as he chucked his lamp at the wall shattering it.

"Hey!" I yelled trying to snap him out of it. He looked lost. Abandoned. 

"Get the fuck out!" He yelled back standing. 

"Why! So you can stand in here and beat yourself up!" I yelled back.

"Leo! I killed him." He dropped to his knees. 

"Here." I tossed my gun on the floor in front of him. 

He picked it up, staring at it while slowly turning it in his hand. "You don't have the balls to do it anyway." I watched him contemplate it.

"What if I do." He stared back at me.

"Then do it. I won't stop you." I shrugged breaking my gaze from him.

He pressed the gun under his chin resting his finger by the trigger.

"But I will say one thing." I watch him close his eyes. "This isn't the last time you'll feel like this. Every time you kill it will eat you from the inside out. But that doesn't mean you should give up. There's something more to life then giving up. You have to push through to find the bright side. But it's your choice."

I lit a blunt breathing in the smoke. I watched his eyes open as he slowly pulled the gun away. I offer the blunt as he handed me back the gun.

"Now let's get out of here." I grabbed his hand pulling him up from the bed.

I opened my eyes shutting off the water. I dried myself off before pulling on a pair of joggers. I stood in my doorway when I heard footsteps.

I slowly reached over grabbing my knife, slowly making my way down the steps. I turned the corner to see Sammi with a bottle of rum.

She looked down at the knife and rolled her eyes. "Don't you think it's a little early for drinking." I closed up my knife sliding it in my pocket.

"Do think your in the position to tell me what to do." She snapped back at me.

"I'm not." I snapped back. "You can keep resenting me but he showed me proof. What was a supposed to think."

"You're supposed to fucking trust me!" She yelled back.

"I can't trust anyone!" I felt so many emotions at once. "I can't fucking trust anyone!"

"Trust me!" She walked closer to me. "Dammit! Fucking trust me!"

"How!" My eyes started to burn.

"You have to!"

"I don't know how." I breathed letting a few tears slip.

She stopped staring at me. "Your crying." She stood there shocked. 

"I know!" I yelled. 

"Stop yelling." She breathed before pulling me into her arms. She played with my hair as I cried into her shoulder. 

I focused on my breathing to stop me from crying. I pulled away once I stopped crying. I stared into her ocean blue eyes mesmerized. 

I leaned into to kiss her as she pulled back from me. "I can't. Not after what you did to me." She stared down at the ground. 

I felt the anger rise in me and before I could control it I snapped. "So what!" I yelled stepping back. "You come over here, get me to cry just to fucking shove me away! Was that the fucking plan!"

"No!"

"I fucking opened up to you! I trusted you! That doesn't fucking matter to you!"

"You are such a fucking dick!" She snapped back. "You can't just fucking torture someone and expect them to care for you after! Look!" She held her wrists in front of my face. "You don't fucking do this to someone you love!" 

She pushed me before storming out of the apartment. I was too stunned to move.

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Sammi's POV

I walked back into Noah's apartment. Noah looked up from the counter smiling at me. "Awe come on, don't look so down."

"Why do I keep letting him do this to me?" I sighed sitting on one of the stools.

"Because you care for him." He shrugged rolling his blunts. 

"So I just keep letting him hurt me over and over again? Doesn't that seem a little mess up?"

"I never said that." He lit a blunt and handed it to me before lighting another one. "You want to know what Tay did the first time I hurt her?"

I breathed out the smoke before nodding. 

"She fought for me. Knocked some damn sense into me." He smirked breathing out the smoke. "I could hurt her over and over but she was too damn stubborn. I remember one time I yelled at her to leave and she refused." 

"You're telling me to forgive him?" I was confused.

"No, I'm telling you that no matter what he does you're too stubborn to leave him. You love him. No one ever said it was easy, but you fight for what you love. No matter what though its your choice."

"Thanks Noah." I finished the blunt before standing up. I walked back to my apartment stopping at the door. I stood there trying to control my breathing as the door opened. 

Leo stood there frozen as he stared at me. "What are you doing here?" He finally spoke his eyes not leaving mine. 

"I refuse to give up. You are the one who gave me this ring, promising me not to leave me." I held up the ring. "I love you Leo Williams and I refuse to let you push me away. Even though you keep hurting me, I refuse to leave."

"I don't understand you, Sammi Grey." He shook his head before continuing. "I'm trying to be a better man for you. I'm not the best and I'm not flawless. I can't promise not to be stupid or not to hurt you again. But I will promise you this, I will never stop fighting for you. Soon enough I will be the guy you want."