Dear Michael,
5.
Today I saw you got a girlfriend. That's cool. I hope she makes you happy.
I hope she makes you smile that smile that I've fallen for. I hope she makes you laugh the laugh that brings me joy. I hope that she loves you as much as you do her.
I hope she doesn't end up breaking your heart. Because that would break my heart too.
When she holds you in your sleep or she holds your hand she's holding my world.
It hurts that I'm not the reason behind your smile. But if you're happy then I'm happy.
My life is starting to get bad again.
I've just been feeling alone. Even in a room full of people I feel alone. I've even been told by my own mother that I'm going to die alone. That really hurt.
All of my friends have been ignoring me. Whenever I try to make plans with them they always end up canceling last minute.
I feel like I'm slowly losing my sanity. My mind is starting to scare me. I scare me.
I have a feeling I'm bipolar. One minute I'm as happy as can be but then the next I'm really sad.
The thing that I don't get the most about it is that it's really easy to become sad but it's extra hard to become happy again.
But I'm trying because of you.
Whenever I see your smile it makes me smile. It shows me that if you can smile I can too.
I love you so much.
Yours Truly,
K
