Scintillate

11 | Your Guardian Angel

"Seokjin!"

For a moment I felt my lungs burn, but as quickly as I had felt the sensation – everything went numb.

"No, let go of him! Take me instead! Take me back instead!" I screamed, thrashing against both predator's grips on my arms.

What happened after that felt like a lie. I had never wanted to be separated from the only person I had loved in this world.

They'd have to kill me first, is what I had always thought.

But one quickly realizes how useless and powerless they truly are in those moments.

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"Yuri! Yuri, please! I need you to calm down, you're scaring me!" Jimin pleaded as his hands hovered over me, knowing that I probably wanted nothing to do with him. And he was right. His kind took everything that I loved away from me. I stood up as the anger shook my frame, Jimin slowly getting up himself from his crouching position on the ground.

"You want me to fucking calm down!?" I stared at him with fire now burning in my eyes, hoping that they'd pierce right through his. "Your ilk took everything away from me and you want me to calm down?!" I inched closer, not caring about the distance or about what could happen to me. All I could feel at that moment was blinding rage. "You have no right to tell me shit!"

Jimin flinched and looked down at the ground, effectively leaving me speechless. Watching such an expression come over his features made all the anger I felt dissipate in an instant. The urge I had to comfort him overwhelmed me and it shocked me how he had such an effect on me, but I refused to give into these feelings for him. They'd have to be erased. I had to fight them off because he couldn't be trusted.

"All this time, you were gaining my trust and for what? Are you going to turn me into the government now?" I said as fresh tears threatened to swell over, the hurt in my voice evident. Truthfully, I was more upset with myself than anything else. I had let myself get too comfortable around Jimin. I had even started to trust him. How could I have been so stupid?

I had always been wary of people, but he came into my life and immediately began breaking down the walls I had built. How could I have let that happen? How foolish of me to believe I could trust Jimin with a secret like mine... And now that he knew what I was, what would become of me?

"You make me sick, turning on your own people like that," I ended, my voice cracking a fraction. I turned away from him, already looking for the quickest exit. There was no way in hell I'd wait for him to turn me in. But just as I began to head for the kitchen window, I heard him.

"Run faster, Yuri! I need you to run faster because then they can't get to you. I won't let them!"

What horrible timing.

But then again, our timing was never the best.

Tears immediately resumed running down my face as I held onto the glass wall next to me for support. These vivid memories that I had blocked out purposely for years are now too much to bear. It was as if he were right there in front of me, a bright smile on display as he dared me to catch up to him. I could feel my chest caving in more and more as the flashbacks continued to come across my vision. It felt like I was dying for the second time in my life and the bullet I took for Jimin didn't count. That hurt far, far less than this.

"Please, whatever happens,"

"Stop," I whispered to myself, putting my left hand on top of my eyes as if that would shut off everything.