"At some point, you have to realize that people can only stay in your heart, not in your life"
Is it normal to feel like I wanna kill myself because it feels like the world is compiling on you.
Family never notices anything.
Friends don't care.
I don't love myself.
Is that the reason why everytime I see my close friends I feel jealous? Because no matter what I am a loner?
Do I matter to someone? Am I worth something?
You can't trust anyone. Not even your own family. Not even your bestest of friends.
No one will understand my pain of picking up the pieces of heart and fixing it only to have it break again.
No one will understand that when you say you want to be alone, it means you are telling them to hug you tightly and tell them it's okay.
No one understands how many times I cried because I don't have anyone to tell me that I'm worth it.
No one to hold me, no one to wipe my tears, no one to whisper 'it's okay'.
Because everyone is selfish.
That is the ugly truth.
When you tell someone the truth, they call you attention seeker. Really?
I pour my heart out to you, cry while I text you and you mock me?
That isn't why I tell you my feelings.
It is so that you can comfort me, tell me I am worth it.
Tell me what I am living for.
Because no matter what, you are not sufficient. For you to feel happy with yourself, others must feel happy about you.
That is what a true relationship is.
'One of the bravest things I ever did was continuing to live even though I wanted to die' -R
