''We can only bottle up our problem for some time. Eventually the bottle will crack and what you stored inside will come out in tears''
I wasn't the best kid in town before. I wasn't a god kid either. I was caught up in my life, surrounded by people who I thought were cool.
A group of 6 members. Or a better word, gang. Nope I wasn't a gangster or anything. I was just too naive to realise what was happening to me.
It was no one's fault. It wasn't hers, it wasn't mine. I guess I was badly i fluenced.
She was really cool and understanding. I forgot to become a leader and became a follower instead.
An A+ to B was the worst grade change for me. At that time, yeah it was pretty bad.
I didn't really care until I got a 4 on my test and I qas so embarassed that I hid it from my mom.
She came to know of it anyway and told me to stay away from my 'influence'. Me being the stupid, tempermental tween decided to make it more dramatic and tore up all the pictures of me and my 'best friends' from my wall.
I was honestly so heartbroken.
But I was even more heart broken when my best friend leaked something about me I didn't want anyone to know. He apparently had a crush on the girl that didn't like me.
She went and told everyone. No one really spoke badly, but then they treated me more differently.
Weirdo.
Fake.
Act.
Liar.
Heartless.
I was called all these, not only by my 'friends' but also by my own cousins.
They do all this and much more.
They socially bully me, constantly backbiting about me, leaving me out, ignoring me.
It all hurts.
The thing I couldn't bear at all was when my cousin texted me saying that our Aunt died.
I already knew about it and I did cry, I just did't show it.
I didn't know how to react to her, so I simply replied with an 'okay'.
What she wrote next was unbelievable.
"I tell you that our relative died and you reply with an okay? How bad can you get, R? Oh, I forgot, you were always like this. Do you think we adore you? No. You think you are so positive and bright and blah blah blah but you are not fooling anyone. You are a fake, in case you didn't know. You are the stone cold heartless girl. Stick to it."
Fake? Stone cold? Heartless?
Is that what I am to everyone?
It's come to a point where I doubt whether anyone likes me. I feel no one cares. Why should they right?
What if my closest friends don't like me?
Am I too negative?
Am I too annoying?
Am I really a fake?
~R
