"I'm a tell 'em all, I'm a tell 'em all that you could
either hate me or love me, but that's just the way I am."
My parents don't understand me. They only want me to be someone who they can be proud of. All I've done in my life is disappoint. I hurt so many people in my life, just like so many hurt me.
For me, when I argue with a friend, I never get emotional. But when it comes to my family, I can cry even if they scold me, because they are the people I look up to. They make me feel safe. But when they don't understand things, it gets frustrating.
They want me to excel in my studies and get into a good stream, in my future. But I'm pretty sure I'll end up disappointing them, like I always do.
No one feels the pain to be with my parents, to feel how they love your sibling more, how they take the siblings side all the frickin time.
They don't understand my pain, and the day they understand is the day I'll understand, why they can't appreciate what I've done.
I'm sorry I couldn't make you proud. I'm sorry I didn't turn out the way you wanted me to be. I'm sorry for being the disappointing mess that I am.
°• I've got scars, even though they can't always be seen,
and pain gets hard, now your here and I don't feel a thing. •°
~A
