"Acting is the greatest answer to my loneliness that I have found."
Everyday I'm fighting. I'm struggling to be happy. I just fought with her. My best friend. I always do. Its mainly my fault. I'm always the one who starts it. She's innocent, did nothing wrong. I'm sorry for hurting you.
I was the one who went and told the secret to the other girl. The other girl went and told it to everyone. It's obviously my fault. I know, I'm a fucking loser. I lose so many people's trust.
No one does anymore. Thus leading me to my loneliness. Everyone thinks I have all the friends, all the happiness, Well bitch you're wrong. My life is full of bullshit. No one gives a damn. I'm lonely. My friends leave me. l lost one few weeks back and I regret being the way I am.
She promised me she'll be there for me when I feel like this. But she wasn't there. Probably won't be cause I'm the way I am and I can't change me. This is me. Depressed, lonely, disappointing. I never make anyone happy.
I'm sorry for hurting everyone. My family. I made them cry because I was not responsible and I couldn't do a tiny thing for them.
I'm sorry for disappointing everyone. I'm sorry for existing. But It doesn't matter cause no one ever noticed me, anyways.
"When I go, All I ever seem to fear, Is that your gonna find someone,
and slowly watch me disappear."
~A
