Broken

Chapter 7

"Come here baby"

"NO STOP IT!"

"Shh it'll be okay."

"PLEASE STOP NO STOP!" --

"SIERRA WAKE UP."

I start to cry and hide my face. When will they stop. I can feel the sweat dripping down my face. Going through my body. Travis holds me tight. He's crying.

"I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I should've never left you alone."

"No baby, it's not you. It's me. I should've fought harder."

He wipes his tears and kisses me on the forehead.

"Travis! Sierra! Breakfast is ready!" Ms.Farrar yells.

We get up and get dressed. I'm wearing skinny jeans with one of Travis's black hoodies.

"You look good lil mama. Come on let's go eat."

"I'm not hungry baby."

He looks at me upset.

"Just try to eat. For me?"

We walk downstairs and sit at the table. Ms.Farrar brings us plates of food. She made me eggs, sunny side up, with bacon on the side and some toast.

"You seemed really upset so I didn't know if you'd be hungry. I made you a small plate just in case."

"Thank you Ms.Farrar."

"Oh please, call me Tammy."

I pick at my food as I watch Travis devour his. I end up eating 1 piece of toast and one of my eggs. I get up to use the restroom. I look in the mirror. I look a mess. My eyes are so baggy. Imma need to apply lots of makeup today. I throw on some concealer, powder, blush, and lots of mascara. I walk out to see Travis sitting on the bed with something in his hand.

"Here, I thought you should have this."

He hands me a bracelet hand made by someone.

"It was my fathers. It always brought me luck and good days. I want you to have it."

A tear falls from my eye. This is so sweet. I run into his arms and hug him tight.

"Thank you so much."

"Forever?" He says.

"Forever." I say.

I kiss him softly with a little passion. Pressing my body against his. He wraps his arms around my waist. I sit in his lap and laugh. Just forgetting about everything. It's all perfect. Everything is okay with him. It's too perfect. He throws me on the bed and starts to tickle me down. I scream and laugh. Squirming all over the bed.

"Ahhhhh Travis stop omg."

I cry with laughter. He lays on top of me and pecks me on the lips.

"My baby is ticklish."

I giggle. "Of course. And so is mine."

I tickle his sides and he starts to laugh.

"Haha! Revenge on my lil niggfoo!"

I push him down, sit in his lap, and tickle him to death. He's laughing telling me to stop. I pull his shirt off laughing with him.

"Wanna skip school today lil mama? I can take you out shopping for whatever you want."

"I'd love that baby. Let's go."

He throws his shirt back on and we walk downstairs, I wait at the door for him.

"Ma, we're going to the mall! Be back soon!"

We rush outside and drive out to the mall.

"Ight, grab whatever you want."

I grab every cute thing a find. From a crop top to a hoodie.

"Lawd baby, you have to buy me these Jordan's! I'll love you forever!" I say.

"Ugh. How much?"

"$150."

"Goddamn. Ight I'll get them baby."

We go up to the cash register and pay. I squeal in excitement. After hours of shopping we drive back home and unpack the boxes of clothes and shoes we got. I fill up a whole dresser of clothes in his room. I throw the shoes in the closet and lay back on the floor. Looking up at the ceiling, thinking of life. Why me. I'm happy, but then I'm not. Every time I'm with Travis, my heart skips beats, my palms sweat, my stomach gets butterflies. Could this be the beginning of love that I'm feeling? It can't be. Travis? And me? In love? I don't know.

"You okay babe?"

"Oh uhm, yeah baby. I'm all good. Just thinking."

"Okay bae. Come cuddle."

"I'm coming."

I get up and lay on top of him as he wraps his arms around me tight. I kiss on his neck then suck. Leaving hickeys.

"Tryna get me horny?"

"No. I'm just bored."

He laughs and lays back. I can feel his body heating up. I should probably stop. I lay my head on his chest and close my eyes. Memories of last night flash through my mind. I try to push them away but they keep coming back. Why won't they leave my head. Why can't I forget. I grab onto Travis's hand really tight.

"Ouch babes. You okay?"

I shake my head no. "They won't leave my mind. The memories are haunting me like a ghost. I can't get rid of them. Why won't they go away!"

"Shhh shhh. It's okay baby. Stop. What do you want me to do baby?"

"I want you to stay with me. Never leave me. Just a few minutes without you and something bad always happens. I hate this. I hate me."

"No. Don't say that. It wasn't your fault."

"Yes it was!"

Travis kisses me on the forehead and lays me on the floor. He gets on top of me, wrapping his arms under me.

"Now, nobody can get to you."

I smile and close my eyes. Dozing off into my sleep.