Past doesn't matter (Levi x OC x Erwin) AU/modern +18

Chapter 10 - How to get used to a man Pt. 1

Erwin's P.O.V.

The day starts early for me. It always does. Even on weekends. It's bothersome but I guess it's difficult to get rid of the military life that easily. Once a soldier, always a soldier, they say and it's true. Even if I'm sleeping, I wake up at the slightest noise, ready and prepared to strike. Levi is no exception. I think with him it's even worse... I have the luxury of watching TV and Netflix in my bed, while Levi rejects a it "This will only make my insomnia worse." He always says and I don't blame him. It's his own choice after all. After a few yawns and stretches, I stand up to pull the curtains back to enjoy the warmth of the sun that shines through my window. After a few minutes with closed eyes to soak in the warmth in the deep fibers of my body like a reptile, I make my bed before I dress in casual clothes. Leaving my room quietly, since I don't want to wake Nina, I sneak into the living room to take a peek at the couch, but It's empty. I run my hand multiple times over the bare surface to find a sign of warmth but found none. ~Did she even sleep here? Or is she already up?~

I walk to the bath and knocked on the door. No answer. I opened the door carefully to peek inside, but it's empty as well. Where the hell could she be? The penthouse is big, but not big enough to grant her many places to hide. Her clothes are still scattered among the couch and her bag from yesterday's swimming trip is still laying near the entrance to our penthouse. Suddenly, I get a strange feeling... Could it be possible that.....? Still questioning myself, my feet already lead me along the way to Levis room. I eavesdropped on it, but I heard nothing. I open the door as quiet as possible and peer inside through a very thin slit. What I saw, caused my eyes to widen in surprise. There she was...Laying in Levi's bed, underneath his body and holding him in her arms, sleeping tight like a baby.

I sigh in surrender. He did it.....He finally did it to steal her away from me. Such a pity..... After all the time we spend together, I slowly began to fall in love with her. Her kindness, her honest emotions, the fact that she treats everyone around her equally, with the same amount of love and joy, even her loose mouth and some of her humor was really entertaining and made me laugh. Her ambiguous talking and dirty phrases from time to time also made it so I could barely can keep my guts together whenever I hear them. All these things make the package complete but it seems fate had different plans for me. I feel a stinging and constricting feeling in my chest and was about to leave the scene as I noticed something else, something unusual.

I was so focused on Nina first, that I didn't pay attention to the person who lays on top of her. I observe Levi very closely and came to notice, that he's sleeping soundly, even snoring a little. I've never seen him like this before. Normally, he wakes up several times during the night, tormented by terrible nightmares. I always hear him panting and whimpering after he's woken up and would switch to sleeping in the living room, watching TV, to make it through the night until a new morning rose. To see him here, sleeping peacefully in the arms of this woman... I couldn't help myself but smile. Maybe this is the best after all. He needs her more than me. As I realize this, I don't grudge him his success.

~Take good care of her, Levi. Or I'll beat your ass up!~

Yet, I couldn't suppress the need deep inside me to feel envy for him.

I take my phone out o commemorate this scene for future generations and for Levi to tease him at a fitting moment. After I left Levis room, I walked back to the kitchen to set the coffee to boil. Once it starts to brew, I walk back into the lounging area, sending the picture I just took to Mikasa with the heading "The eagle has landed". I received her answer within 2 minutes but no text, only many, many hearts and a grinning smiley with a thumbs-up. I sigh as I drop down on the couch, stroking over the soft surface where Nina laid before. I grab the blanket to pull it close to me, inhaling her scent. I would give anything to fall asleep while breathing in this wonderful smell every night and to wake up next to this woman, running my fingers through her hair, stroking my hands over her skin. The last relationship I had was so long ago that I almost forgot how it feels to care for someone that much. I clench my fist tight, wrinkling the blanket in my fist.