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I know who I serve.

When the world does not fall according
to my plans. When my heart gets tied in
knots around a person who loosens,
unravels, and leaves. When pain comes
knocking on my doors and windows,
slipping through the cracks like winter
cold. When my eyes can barely open in
the morning because they’re heavy with
the weight of everything gone wrong.
When I’ve lost someone I love, or lost my
way, or lost my sense of purpose:
Even in all these things, God is good.
I know that I serve a God who loves, a
God who gives, a God who cares, even
when He feels so far away from me. I
know that I serve a God who is patient, a
God who is doting, a God who will go to
battle for me, fight with me, never let me
fall.
I know that I serve a God who is all-
powerful, who will stand beside me
through every trial I face in this sinful
life—not allowing the ache, not watching
passively as terrible things happen—but
reminding me that the pain, the evil, the
wreckage of the world is not of Him.
And if I seek Him when my
heart is heavy, He will restore
me with strength, love, and
hope.
When I dance with the devil. When I
forget who I am or where I’m headed.
When someone close to me spirals
downward and I feel powerless as they
struggle. When I am cheated on, abused,
mistreated, and forgotten. When I feel
like I just want to quit:
Even through all of these burdens, I will
follow my God.
I know that despite every downfall, in
His name I will rise again. I know that
through every season, He is blessing me
and I need not lose hope. I know that He
gave His son’s life for me, for all the sins
of the world, so that I wouldn’t ever have
to feel alone and broken.
So I will trust in who He is, who He will
always be.
When it all falls apart, I know
who I serve.
When the days feel endless and slow.
When I cannot sleep at night, making
shapes of the cracks in my bedroom
ceiling. When the words of someone else
sting my heart. When I watch
friendships fade or lovers look elsewhere
for happiness. When I cannot find the
resolve, the nerve, the love, the joy I
once had:
Even through these broken days on earth, I
am God’s child.
And I will not lose faith. I will not give
up. I will not let the darkness
overshadow the promises He’s made,
that He is near, that He is within me,
that He is not going anywhere—not
today, not ever.
I will trust in the promise of a next life,
of a perfection in the arms of my Father.
I will push forward, I will step, I will
crawl, scoot if I have to, just to be where
He is.
I will not let the worldly trials weaken me
to the point that I forget the one who
created me.
No matter what happens, no matter
where I go, no matter what this sinful
life throws in my direction, I know who
I serve. And I will not be shaken.