Suicidal thoughts that once corroded in my mind
Now all I do is adore this lovely life
Remember when you said, "Im sorry are you alright?"
I never should have said "Im fine"
I never should have lied.
I got addicted to you and I was worried all the time
the way I thought about you every single moment of my life
Is just another nail in my coffin to be buried alive
but I should have know happiness is hard to find.
It started with a sip and You warned me not to gulp
It started with a kiss and you told me not to rush
Girl I knew you'd be the death of me
and I think I've grown enough
but getting over you is really tough
these nights have been really rough.
Lately I've just been painting pictures everywhere
With my words,
With my paints,
With the smoke in the air..
I got used to just drinking down my time
every call on my phone that I get, I hope its you
so I take some time to press decline.
all the pictures of you I've deleted from everywhere
but there's no fucking button I can press
to remove it from my head.
But sometimes you've just got to rip off that bandaid
to give your wound some time to breathe
but now I've got to break out of this cage
only then can my soul be freed.
-fxg
