I'm Still Perfect

Chapter 1: Arissa

Hi! Im arissa. I am a senior in high school and wish everyday that school would slow down. I didnt want to graduate and have to stop acting like a kid and worrying about my future. I like how life was now; all about the party.

Oh, did i mention i am muslim? Well i am not that thats very important. Im sure you think im one of those muslims with the headscarves and praying all day long, but im not. My family is like that but i have managed to convince them to let me be the normal teenage girl so i got to ditch the headscarf. I just had to promise to be the perfect daughter and as far as they knew i was.

The funny thing i wasnt even close. I partied and drank alcohol, but what 17 year old doesnt? Sure, the nerds and geeks dont but i have a reputation to maintain. I certainly wasnt popular of anything, but i wasnt at the bottom of the totum pole either. I was right in the middle. I wasnt the perfect muslim daughter my parents have always wished for, but i didnt care. As long as they thought i was, then i could do as i please. Life was all about the party and i wasnt about to sacrifice my youth for my strict parents traditions. I was just careful.

My parents thought i was a virgin. They were completely wrong. I lost my virginity in the back of a truck when i was 14. Dont get me wrong, i am certainly not a slut. I didnt sleep around with a ton of different guys. I only had sex with five different guys, but my parents knew about none of that.

They didnt even think i ever dated a guy, because they didnt approve of that either. They were so cluless though. I had about ten different boyfriends in my life. Some were a short time no strings attached thing, others were serious relationships. My longest boyfriend was 15 months then i dumped his sorry ass when i caught him cheating with my ex- best friend, Ali. That whore was making out with him behind the school. I hate her now.

Lucky for me, i had a new boyfriend, Luke. He was the star football quaterback and all the girls wanted him. He could have anyone he wanted and he chose me. He was a player and i knew he was going to break my heart but i didnt care as long as i had his attention. He wasnt the best boyfriend ever. He was extremely short tempered and wasnt into the whole PDA thing. All my friends said he was embarrassed of me, but i think they are just jealous that i have the hottest guy in the school. He was sweet and thoughtful too though. Thats why i liked him so much. He was perfect in my eyes.

Everything was going great for us. We were so happy together until that one night that changed my life forever.

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"Hi hottie!" I squealed wrapping my arms around lukes waist pressing my cheek against his back.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?" He screamed his temper flying as he flung my arms off of him. I could see i upsetted him but i didnt get what i did wrong.

"I was hugging my boyfriend." I chirpped explaining my actions.

"Well fucking dont! I told you not to touch me in school!" He hollared his temper still flaring. My eyes started to water because i didnt want him to be mad at me. A tear fell from my eye and i tried to fight the rest of them that wanted to fall.

"Dont fucking cry ris! Just dont be so stupid!" He yelled not comforted me like i had hoped he would.

"I..im...sorry." i whimpered trying not to cry anymore. I didnt want to anger him anymore.

"Whatever. Dont talk to me!" He continued yelling. My heart sank when he said those words. He couldnt mean them.

"But luke. What about the carnival?" I asked my eyes pleading.

"Find someone else to go with!" He yelled spinning and storming off.

The tears i had been fighting so hard to hold back came rushing down my face. My heart had been torn out again. Luke was so easy to upset i found myself walking on broken glass around him. Always having to watch what i say or do. I hated it but i cared too much for him to break it off.

"Whats wrong arissa?" A concerned voice asked from behind me. I quickly wiped the tears on my face and turned around to see lukes best friend connor behind me. Ever since we started going out, i have been hanging around with lukes friends alot, especially conner. He was sweet and really funny.

"Nothing conner. Im fine." I answered putting on a fake smile.

"Luke?" He asked seeing right through my facade.

I nodded. Even the sound of his name brought tears to my eyes. He pulled me closer to him and i wept on his shoulder. I loved having him around to comfort me. Soon enough i felt better and explained everything to him while he listened intently.

"Thats just luke." He said with a slight disgust in his voice. I wonder what that is about? "He will get over it soon enough." He continued still comforting me.

"I hope so." I replied trying to sound uneffected but completely failing.

"Dont worry." He reassured. "And youre coming to the carnival with me." He added not bothering to ask me if i wanted to. Not that i would have said no seeing i had no one else to go with.

We walked off together his arm draped friendly over my shoulder. I was ready to have fun and forget about luke for now.